Things I'm working on: re-finishing my mom's kitchen cabinets, building myself a new ergonomic desk, building a foot platform for my feet when I sit on my desk, re-writing my software in Swift, possibly going onto iOS. Life is great.
Regarding work, I feel blessed. Busy, but blessed. If I keep things up the way they are I might get out of debt in a year and a half. That is not too shabby. I can't wait to be done with it all and move on with a normal life after that. Then I can take care of mom and dad and whoever else I feel the need to take care of. Happy birthday Hani.
For now, what I have left are graduation and moving to my new place. Very exciting.
What else? Well... wrapping things up here in San Antonio and getting ready to make my move back to the Dallas area. I'm house shopping, car shopping and so forth. I am ready to start my radiology career and software entrepreneurship. Would love to see both of these pick up and hire a team under me for each one.
In some other pretty awesome news, I "met" someone super awesome.
Happy birthday Nasser.
Right now I'm in the middle of finishing my master's thesis for my program. I am very excited to be done with it soon. All the data is with the statistician. Once I get the results I am basically left with two steps. Write the paper and then defend my thesis. Other than that, life is good.
In other news I have finally fired my first gun ever. My friend took me to a shooting range and it turns out I'm a pretty decent shot. It was fun but I have to admit, it's not really my thing. While many people say it helps get rid of frustration and such, myself it did nothing for me. I guess I'm just not that type. Give me a guitar, or a computer, or a swimming pool to jump into. That works.
Happy birthday Hani.
I just came back from a fun day at the Cowboys stadium. Best seats ever and what an incredible game... even though we did lose at the end. Still, great company, good game and some tarneeb at night. What more can a guy ask for?
I am ready to finish my residency. I have been in hospital rotations for two months so far and wow... so boring. I would rather be doing my own studies and reports, at least I learn from those. All I can say is thank God for football season. I love watching football, tomorrow will be my usual date with Joe. Chicken wings and football. Hopefully they get our order right this time.
These days I am obsessing over buying a new Z4. Such a beautiful machine and so well designed. The question here is do I want to buy one now? Or should I just be practical and worry about it when I'm back to practicing full time? There's also this amazing guitar that I played. It is a Martin GPCPA1 Grand Performer Acoustic Electric. What a terrible model name. Can't they name them something more memorable? Anyway, sounds and plays amazingly well and I am very tempted to just go there and pick one up for myself. The practical side of me says wait of course. You have student loans to pay off, you're better off doing that. I'll probably listen to it, nothing sounds better than the guitar that I have right now anyway.
Oh, I have actually been studying for my boards lately. This is a new development, but I figure three more weeks to go. Time to get on it and start memorizing all the shit I forgot after my first year in the program. It is time to get on it. The second to last exam I might ever have to take and I can't wait for it to be over.
Other than that, well... not much really. Finally paid off one of my loans. It is a great great feeling. Happy birthday Bahito.
I am very excited to head out on a trip to Florida at the end of August. Just a nice vacation. Get away from school and be able to relax. In the mean time it is absolutely time for me to get my lazy ass up and start working on some reviews for the boards. I am now Chief Resident of my program which is a very big deal. I am also working on my second music album. These will be a very busy couple of months.
I am excited that I finally get to go back to the gym today. After being sick for over two weeks and just not feeling up to it, this is going to be a very nice change. I can finally do what I need to do without coughing up a lung. I was even singing yesterday.
Right now life is great. Meeting a whole bunch of new people, and one particular person seems very amazing. Otherwise, life is life. I'm hoping to make into to Dallas this weekend for Samier's birthday.
Happy birthday Samier.
Right now there officially is nothing too exciting going on. I am keeping busy with exercising, working on a new piece of software and basically keeping up with all my work and school stuff. Sometimes I wish I had way more time during the day to just not think, but this is my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything else. My mind is always trying to work out ways for me to pay off my loans and get out of debt. Because after that... well... I'm free.
In other news... there is no news. Just busy with life as usual. Happy birthday Lina and Sanam.
I had a ridiculous flu the past few days though, and it really knocked me on my ass. Now I'm back to normal though. Just a little cough here and there, but nothing too serious. I can definitely handle it. Right now, I'm deciding whether I want to go to NYC, LA, San Francisco, Dallas or just some random place where I know no one. It's a good problem to have.
Happy birthday Mazen
Life is good.
In the mean time I do get a week off school in March. I booked a plane ticket to go to Dallas and then to LA as well. Very excited. I'm ready for a real break and some relaxation.
In the mean time, I am as busy as always. I believe this year stocks will bounce back to new, record highs, and the economy overall will improve. That means work will get better and I am hoping that I will be able to pay off some student loans while I'm at it.
Happy New Year and happy birthday Nasreen!
In the mean time I have an exam coming up next week. Not at all looking forward to it, but definitely looking forward to the time afterwards. It's gonna be an incredible year for me.
Happy birthday Mom and Savera!
I still haven't gotten a new laptop, waiting on that I suppose. Let's see how the stock market reacts this next month before I jump into a new purchase. I might be able to pay off some loans and both cars pretty quickly. Which would be amazing.
In the mean time, yesterday was the first actual cold day in San Antonio. It is amazing how long it stays warm over here. I absolutely love the warm weather. Also by cold, I mean about 60 degrees. Not exactly bone chilling, but definitely cooler. My convertible top didn't come down.
Happy birthday Monique and Hani
These days I'm getting closer and closer to my goals, and paying off my cars and some student loans. Basically I'm making the best of what I have. I also found a new apartment that I might move into. This one is beautiful. Wood floors and granite tops. More my style. Should suit my furniture just fine as well.
On another note, I'm thinking of getting a dog. I'm excited to find the little pup. Either a Pug or a Boxer.
In the meantime, been to Austin, going to Georga, considering taking a trip to Bora Bora around Thanksgiving and might even make it to Houston next weekend just for the hell of it with a bunch of friends.
In the mean time, I am heading into my second year of my residency and I'm very excited about that. It really will be busy and great at the same time. I can't stress enough that this is in fact one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. It is the type of practice that I am in full control of, and it simply puts a smile on my face when there is a puzzle in front of me and I have to figure it out. This is diagnostics; and it's much more interesting than practicing with my hands ever was. Additionally it is also better for my back.
Happy birthday Meghan. I know you're out celebrating right now.
My prayers are with my director and his son Danny.
At home, I have spent the past two weeks writing a new version of iGrades. I think it is a tremendous upgrade to what the last version was. I've also managed to find a weekend job so that I can hopefully get back on track financially and start again on paying off my bills. First become debt free, then start saving.
Mazen's birthday recently passed. Happy birthday!
I am excited about this weekend, tomorrow I'm making my way home to see my baby. It's gonna be nice to just relax a bit and concentrate on a software project that I really need to wrap up very soon.
That being said, I spent a couple of hours last night replacing the brake pads, sensors and rotors on my car, a job that I was quoted $1500.00 to do ended up costing me 220.00 dollars in parts and tools and about a couple of satisfying hours out of my life. So far the car is driving smoothly, the breaks seem to work just fine and I really can't complain. A little sore, but such a great feeling. I put my Meghan on it.
The car aside, I am still loving this residency, this coming week will be an extremely busy week. It is our first week writing reports and we are literally being thrown into it. I am very nervous and very excited at the same time. This really will be a test of what it's like on the private practice side of things. I simply get scans and I describe and diagnose my findings. I will have a couple of eight hour days. Basically it's a test to whether that lifestyle is in fact doable full time or if it is like everyone else says, a half time thing or you'll go crazy.
Back to what really matters, I absolutely love what I'm doing here, I just wish I can somehow monetize it. That is really the biggest factor for me right now. If I could somehow make a living so that I don't have to worry about my bills while I'm in this program, I would be one very very happy person. Plus it would basically make it the perfect experience.
Happy birthday dad!
In the mean time, I have a move date and I'll be getting my own place soon. Sad to leave Mazen, excited to have my own place. Life is good.
I also just finished updating my three programs that I'm selling on the Mac App Store. Hopefully those go through pretty soon. They're good updates. Other than that, school school school.
Speaking of next week. It is the official start of Fall semester. This is the one, the king of all semesters where I am simply going to disappear. It looks like it is going to be brutal, with something like eleven classes to take. Every resident before us, including the chief resident said the same thing. This one, will make you wish you hadn't joined. After that things will get simpler. So four months of extensive schooling and then some relaxation. It will still be tough, but not overly. Beginning in January I start diagnosing and looking at radiographs (the correct term for x-rays). More than anything I will start scanning patients on our cone beam CT (CBCT) units. This is exciting for me as the majority of my career will be based on CBCT. This is where things get interesting and this is where I plan on making a living.
I had a fun weekend, thanks to Manal, Doa and my Babaloo Babyloo Babaloo! I miss having my peeps around me in general. In any case, I keep myself busy programming these days. I released my first app on the Mac App Store. I have to make a living somehow. Hopefully I can write a few of these and have them truly supplement my living costs so that I can be worry free this next few years. I also started a new website in addition to my radiology site called CocoaShot. Check it out when you get the chance. You will see Passport Photo listed on it.
That being said, playing with radiology software and starting to use my computer for some pretty intensive tasks, I think I have finally reached the limit of the hardware on this machine. It is an amazing machine and has lasted me a long time, but it's time to upgrade. I'm just waiting on Apple to finally release some new laptops and I'll see what suits me. More than likely the MacBook Air with Sandy Bridge platform is going to be the winner here. Next year I'll consider upgrading to Ivy Bridge when Intel finally releases it. In the mean time, I have to have something. I'm currently running OS X Lion and I love it. I finally submitted my first app to the Mac App Store. Hopefully I will get some money to help me pay my way through school. Very expensive. In the mean time, you can follow the progress on that at my latest radiology site.
Update on the Z4, it is by far my favorite car I've ever driven. Yes even more so than my beloved Del Sol. I hate to admit it but I finally found a more fun car. It drives fast, turns quickly and right now I can only imagine it being topped by the Z4 M. I am very sad to report though that BMW is slowly phasing out manual shifters from their cars. For example, the current high end Z4 is only available in automatic. So depressing. I guess when I graduate I will have to switch to Porsche and hope that they still make manual transmissions.
In the mean time I will keep updating my Oral and Maxillofacial Radiology site to document my residency experience.
That being said, I've also started a new website to document my experiences in my upcoming specialty training in Oral and Maxillofacial Radiology. Honestly, I have started this site for one reason and one reason only, there is almost no information on the field out there. Salary ranges are very variable, and while they sound great, I feel like they might be debatable. Not exactly the most credible sources out there. It is something I have wanted to do and I am taking a risk getting involved, but a risk that I am excited about. To keep up with my OMFR residency click on the OMFR link above.
I need to start packing all my stuff. DVDs need to go into boxes and I need to take down the entertainment system at some point. I don't really have too many things that need to be packed, my studio is completely disassembled. All I have left is my entertainment center and my clothes. Neither of which I can imagine taking a long time at all.
I finally bought a new battery for my laptop, it's about time, the last one won't even last three hours before finally saying bye bye. I guess I'm a bit spoiled with my Macbook, considering my dad's laptop is lucky if it lasts half an hour. Still I have become used to having a very long battery life. I'm still in love with my Z4. I think from now on I know better than to ever buy anything other than a roadster for myself. It's really the way to go. My next car will be a Porsche Boxster S or if BMW ever releases it, the Z2.
It's time for me to start packing and boxing everything, in a month I will be headed down to San Antonio to start school all over again. Just another three years and I'm all done. Hopefully I'll be able to come back and get a position teaching at Baylor and also be able to practice radiology part time from home. That is the key and really what I'm looking to do.
My new office will be opening soon, three more weeks. It got pushed back to April 1st. Not only that, but this office that I'm in now should be getting it's cone beam CT machine sometime this week. I am very excited about this. I'm excited to scan myself and go digging, seeing if I find anything at all. I'm also needing it for a patient of mine that has simply been having some odd symptoms. I'm hoping that this will provide me with a better diagnosis and I can finally fix her up properly.
Other new stuff... I'm currently testing OS X Lion, the next OS from Apple. I'm very impressed with what they're doing here. I believe this update will be worth the upgrade price. Talk about changing how computers work in general. Making the concept of saving and shutting down a computer all a thing of the past. Why didn't OS makers think of this before? An operating system that automatically saves documents every hour. Not only that, it keeps copies of all the original documents since the file was started. I believe that Apple will make a huge push for SSD drives next year. The recent release of Macbook Pros is nice, but it's not the one that will redefine the laptop computer. Apple is aiming to make a big change and if the Macbook Air is any indication, then I would only hope that Apple will follow suit with the Pros late this year or early next year. This really will be very exciting for me. I was hoping to upgrade but I believe I'll wait till the next batch of computers. I think we'll see SSD storage, no more internal CD/DVD drives, and also finally a real graphics card in the 13" version. Plus a much higher screen resolution. I would love if Apple gets Lion resolution independent enough to actually be able to double the resolution of their monitors. Once you the iPhone 4 and get used to how crisp that display is, you know what you want in laptop.
Tomorrow is Thursday, and I am happy to report that I do not have a morning meeting. I love late starts. Not sure why, but I've always thought I was a morning person. Turns out waking up to an alarm is just not my cup of tea. I wake up early on my own regardless, usually by eight in the morning, but if an alarm woke me up, I'm cranky. This leads me to my next point. If I do radiology, an alarm is one item that I will kiss goodbye. Sometimes I wish the world wasn't so much about making money and more about living life. Maybe then we can all get along.
Not too many changes to report, I did register some more websites and a new blog to describe my experiences. Hopefully that blog will continue for the next few years.
That being said, nothing huge has changed. Serene and Ahmed are now married, it was an incredible wedding and I couldn't be happier for either one. I'm selling my car again, this time for a good cause and I'm looking at very cheap cars right now. This is going to be a very difficult transition. Going from my sexy car to a... SUV maybe. Not looking forward to it at all but it would be nice to have a much smaller bill to pay. Right now the way the economy is it might not be a bad idea at all. So why SUV? No reason other than it's something that if my girlfriend and I get married, once I get out of the specialty program then she can have it. She loves big cars. The bigger the better. Me? Not so much, I would be much happer with a BMW Z4. Standard transmission and fully loaded otherwise. It would be a thrill car.
Sacrifices have to be made I suppose. The other thing is I would again be away from my family and again be going into more debt. This does not at all sound exciting to me, but at the same time I might consider doing national guard and work two days a month. If it'll pay down some of my original student loans I might consider signing up the three years that I'm in school again and pay off some serious student debt while I'm in school.
Happy New Year!
Now my baby is not feeling too good. She's also very hungry. I'm not really that hungry. Lately I've been on this Oatmeal kick. It's surprisingly good. It also is good for my cholesterol. So I can't really complain too much.
More than anything these days though, I'm excited about only working two days this week and seeing Mazen. Also this time my baby will be coming with me! She was able to get time off work. This is going to be a great long weekend.
So here I am, in a bed that we have both agreed tends to cause a lot of back pain and sore muscles in the mornings. Mazen is in town and I'm excited to get out and get some breakfast. My baby has a lot of homework to do this weekend so I'll probably be hanging out solo. Not such a horrible thing, but I will miss her while I'm out and about. Can't wait for Hani, Nasser and Noor to come into town next month. It feels like the entire crew has just missing lately.
Future plans are still brewing, what I'm hoping for is some major changes to be announced in a few months.
I also finally got my hands on a U87 Neumann mic. One of the best recording microphones for vocals. Thanks Firas. I'm going to test it out and attempt to possibly even recording the entire album using this mic. Who knows, it would be great to have someone master the album for me. I might get the recordings in, and send the songs to someone at Universal Studios to master for me. If I can get the full thing mastered at the same time I might be able to pull off a much better sound.
Halloween is coming up, which is nice and exciting! I'm not really into it that much, but my baby is and I want her to have some fun. Life is good!
Yesterday I spent the better half of my night putting up shelves and mirrors and hanging pictures. We are pretty much done with the move at this point. Just some last minute organization and the apartment will be complete. My girlfriend cancelled her contract with her other apartment already and so this should be pretty straight forward at this point. We now live together, and hopefully will be able to save a lot of money on rent, bills, etc...
Other than that? Well? Nothing much to be honest. I have signed up to be an affiliate member of the American Academy of Oral and Maxillofacial Radiology. Very excited about this field. This will truly be the future of dentistry thanks to cone beam CT scans.
I'm very excited to meet up with Mazen this weekend in Houston, also to go to San Antonio the weekend after to hang out with him. This is going to be great! He's on call but Saturday and Sunday he's free to do whatever. The way it should be. Things are going where I want them to go and I have a very good feeling about some big changes that I am getting ready to make.
Special shout out to my baby. Because she's the best. Also this interesting blog that I've found.
In another note, we are in the middle of Ramadan and I am fasting every day. I have to say, I really don't like Ramadan. Actually I like Ramadan but I hate fasting. It is just so tiring, makes it hard to do anything during the day. Afraid of going out in the sun, because it's too hot and I'm worried about getting dehydrated. By the end of the day I get in a markedly bad mood. Always angry and easily irritable. I guess food keeps me happy.
Other than that, what has changed? Nothing really. Just in the planning process of my life. Deciding on basically what is going to happen.
I have decided to try to teach one day a week and practice four days a week. I think for me this would be ideal. I've always wanted to teach and always had a passion for it. It really comes down to whether I can find an opening. I'm sure there has to be something open. If there is I will jump on that and hopefully teach students clinically and maybe give a few tips and tricks here and there. I am excited about the thought of that, although the drive would not be fun at all.
Other than that I have finally gotten my 2011 Audi S4 a couple of days ago. I love this car. Absolutely beautiful to drive, I have not once felt so comfortable driving a car as I have this one. Yes it is a sedan, which is a drift from my normal cars, but I'm ok with that. I'm ok with change. After all, if you don't change, you die. Now I need to start relieving myself from some financial stresses. Now that I finally have a car, my only purchase since I started practicing, I think it's time to concentrate on paying off all of my loans and doing some investments. This is the time to sacrifice lifestyle and eating out for some solid decisions that will hopefully make having a family a very easy and enjoyable task.
Another important topic that he brought up would be the IRS, federal income tax and why people who have kids pay less taxes. Shouldn't they pay more? At first I thought this was a bit crazy but the more I think about it the more it makes sense. Why is it that people can pay less taxes just because they have kids? Why do churches get a tax break? Same goes for really most of the tax deductions. As Bill Maher said, the IRS has become a social club.
What impressed me most about this show is that when they started talking about nuclear weapons and how Bill pointed out that Israel is a threat. Is this the first time in American TV history that I have seen someone bad mouth Israel? I never liked this show until this episode. They finally made some sense. Federal taxes are a joke these days and the IRS really should be dismantled. Instead of taxing income, tax goods higher. People pay taxes based on what they spend rather than what they make. Works well in other countries, not sure why the US is an exception to this system. I feel like the IRS system is so corrupt that someone out there is making a lot of money off of the working public.
Happy birthday Noor and Serene!
Speaking of opportunities, Abu Dhabi anyone?
The never ending tax system in the United States is appalling to say the least. Everything is taxed with absolutely no reason for it. Things to consider, if you purchase a used computer from someone on eBay, you don't pay taxes. If you purchase a used car from someone on eBay, you pay taxes. The IRS is the most confusing entity of government around. Honestly the entire thing is a scam. Taxes need to radically change in the United States. I propose to simply remove the IRS and increase sales tax. Make sales tax 30% and completely get rid of income tax. People pay as much as they spend. The more money you have the more likely you are to spend and you can control what portion goes to taxes simply by spending less. This by itself will encourage people to start saving more and spending less. This means no ridiculous spending and outrageous loans. That being said, taxes should be limited ONLY to new products. If you buy a car brand new, then you pay taxes on it. When you buy it used, taxes have already been paid on that vehicle, why pay it again? It doesn't make sense. The same applies to housing and land.
I don't know why things developed the way they are but when half of my paycheck is going to some entity and I have no idea why it really does get very frustrating. And then at the end of the year I have to pay them even more money? What in the world? Can someone explain that logic to me, because this is getting ridiculous. I can't even pay my student loans these days and it's mostly because taxes take away so much money. If I can control my spending, which I have to anyway, then that will allow me to pay my loans much easier and get me out of this debt that is weighing me down.
Other than that, I also finally got my dumbbells. Powerblock dumbbells and a great bench to get me going again. Also I recently ordered the Weider X Factor door gym. Hopefully the combination of both will keep my back straight secondary to work. Tonight's workout: chest, biceps, shoulders.
Recording of a new song began but for some reason I just cannot get it to sound as good as when I sing it live. Something in the recording gets lost. It has been driving me nuts and honestly it is the reason that I absolutely hate recording. It never sounds as good as when I'm in person.
Gym here I come.
I have many hopes for 2010, to name a few I hope to pay off at least two large loans, cancel my TV service (worthless), and buy a house. I'm also hoping that Apple comes out with a tablet and Obama manages to make healthcare reform a complete reality. I am also very hopeful that my second album release will be much better.
Happy New Year everyone!
Work has been going great. Things are improving for me. It's just a matter of getting my numbers to go up and consistently stay up at this point. I'm learning so much and enjoying so much. So many great patients. There are frustrations, but for the most part I have to say that things have been going very well for me. Insha Allah they will continue so. I have gone to the gym the past three days. Today is leg day, which I never enjoy doing. Still after I eat I have to force myself to make it to the gym. I don't know why lately I have been so lazy when it comes to the gym. I need to get back into it so I can get back in shape.
I'm starting to save money towards my car. If I can pay that off I think I will feel much better about my finances. It is one less loan to worry about. Then comes one more loan. Then comes paying off all my smaller loans with every two paychecks and before you know it, I just have a few bigger ones. I will tackle those as they come. The less interest I pay the better I will be and the more freedom I will have when it comes to my career and how I want to proceed with it.
I have finally managed to buy what I need from Ikea to hang the shelves that I bought. I also need to go to Zara and return a few things that I had purchased. I didn't expect the medical expenses to take place. This sucks.
In other news, I think I am done spending money on my necessary purchases. I'm done. Now it's time to start saving up as much as possible and start paying off all the loans that I possibly can. This is the priority now and my mind is set on it.
Speaking of music studio, I've finally begun working on my second album with 6 songs completed. Some of which have been recorded and others are still being recorded mixed. The environment here is so quiet it really makes recording very easy. Much easier than in New York. Plus a glass door doesn't hurt either. I can slip the computer outside of it while recording so that any fan noise the computer makes is no longer an issue while recording. Essentially what it comes down to now is furnishing the place and getting my equipment setup.
Other than that I've really just been busy working, hanging out with friends and enjoying what I can of life.
In other news, I'm also aggressively trying to pay off my loans. So what it comes down to now is simply saving up and paying off one loan and then the next. I am starting with high interest, short term loans and making my way down the list. 17 of them to go right now. Hopefully by November we will be looking at 16 of them. Then a few months after that down to to 15 loans. That will drop my monthly payment by about on thousand dollars. This will give me some breathing room and the ability to really start paying off loans.
Now that being said, it is hopefully over and I can now relax. I'm going to go and get some jeans for myself (mine are all torn apart and pretty much at the end of their life). I also cannot wait to finally get some food in my body. Ramadan is starting to take a toll on me right now and it really is becoming increasingly difficult. Plus I haven't been to the gym in who knows how long. Oh well... I hope today's karma changes and tomorrow gets nice and busy and smooth flowing. It's the way I like things.
Till then, life has been work, weekend, work, weekend. This coming week I'm flying to California for some dental conferences. That should be fun.
I've also signed on my new apartment. Unfortunately my move in date is still a month and a half away from now. In the mean time I'm coming up for ideas in my head to decorate the place. It's located at the Shops at Legacy. Nothing is more convenient than that. I don't have to drive anywhere. I just walk downstairs and there are a ton of things to do. I also can't wait to get a music studio up and running again. The study is the perfect room for it. It is big, and has no neighbors to the side of it so I can get as loud as I would like. Plus a glass door so that I can put the computer outside (fan noise) and still be able to record. This will get me the cleanest signal I have ever gotten from any recording. Hopefully I can get a recording of my new Uke for a couple of songs that I've written. I'm excited about having a very clean sound.
Yesterday I had gone out to Candle Room for Bahaa's birthday. That was fun. Today circus and I'm thinking karaoke. Tomorrow who knows. Happy Birthday Bahaa.
Tomorrow I'm heading out to San Antonio to see Mazen. I can't wait for that. It's going to be a great time. Of course I'm not taking my car. I'd rather not have to add miles to it when it just isn't necessary. Especially with the advent of Manal having her company car. We will pay for gas, but at least I don't have to worry about too many miles being added to the car.
Till then, life is quite good.
Otherwise I've been apartment shopping and simply enjoying what I can of life before I hit the work force. I'm excited about working but I just know that once I start, that will pretty much be it. There won't be much stopping beyond that point. I have been looking into sky diving. Hopefully sometime soon. Maybe in the next couple of weeks or so. I know I'm afraid of heights but it's something that I really really want to do. It's a once in a life time thing and there is no time like the present to jump. Very Cliche but very true at the same time. For right now I think I'm going to go to the gym, jump in the pool, and enjoy whatever is going to end up happening tonight. Should be a jolly good time.
Happy Birthday Nish!
This Friday is my graduation party at Al-Amir. I'm pretty excited, there are going to be a ton of people there and it is going to be a great great time. Other than that, Greg and I are throwing a Fourth of July party at his brand new place in Lewisville. I can't wait for that party. His place is beautiful and the view is unbelievable. This will truly be one of the best places to celebrate the Fourth of July.
Work... here I come.
Other than that I have had time to completely redesign and reprogram Got Nose?. I have re-written the entire code base so that the program works properly with folders, subfolders, and images with spaces in them. I have also incorporated Shadowbox in the code so that the presentation is pristine all the way to the end. The program now automatically detects the images, their folder names, arranges them by either date or folder: depending on a preference setting. It also creates the thumbnails automatically and even works with video files and audio files. It essentially supports all types of media and does it in a very polished and elegant way. It has several customizable preferences and so far has been working very well. I probably still have a few bugs to iron out but they are minor at best. Now I have to figure out how to add features to it. Possibly the ability for other people to upload images to it.
I have also been car shopping lately. I think I have found my car. Nasouh is on it right now and we are simply waiting for it to somehow make its way to his dealership so that it can get checked out and inspected for any issues. Plus any imperfections will be repaired and hopefully when I make it home in a couple of weeks I will have my car.
The biggest news of all... this is my final week in dental school. I am very excited to have five more days left of dental school and then graduation and then never again look at it. This is a journey that I am hoping to never ever repeat. I learned a lot, but at the same time I am tired of being there and excited about what is coming next. Now I'm in the middle of selling my furniture and all my stuff. I seem to be generating a ton of interest in my things. Hopefully by the end of the week I will have no furniture here left and only my clothes which I can easily pack into a box and ship home the day before I leave.
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I've been packing up the place slowly. I already sent 4 boxes home and it looks like I have a few more to go. I would like to have everything packed and already sent so that when I finally fly home all I have to take with me will be my laptop and my diploma.
In other news, I'm still car shopping and I still haven't found the exact car that I want. I can't say that I'm not excited though about finally purchasing one. I can't wait to make it home and just have something to drive for myself instead of having to count on whatever car is there or someone else to drive me around. Other than that, I'm looking forward to taking a few months off and relaxing after I graduate. I'm also looking forward to moving back to Dallas and laying out and enjoying the sun. I have to clean the pool though. Maybe I'll re-plaster it myself and get that done. Probably not. I'd rather just get someone to fix it. I'll have to wait till I'm working for that to happen though.
In other news, there are no other news. I'm just doing what I can right now to graduate on time. That's it.
I've been very busy these days though. Honestly a little stressed too. I guess I'm just worried about graduating on time. I already know two people who are going to be held behind because of requirements not being met. Now I just need to get my stuff in check and that's what I've been concentrating on. Hopefully I have all my requirements met by the beginning of May. If that's the case, the I can start selling off my furniture so that comes graduation I will be absolutely ready to move out. No issues and no hassle. My landlords are amazing and they are making things as convenient as possible for me.
Till then I am going to busy busy busy.
So I just got back from a weekend from Dallas. Well technically I'm on spring break here. Unfortunately two things get in the way of that. First, the weather in NYC doesn't exactly scream spring. Second, I am taking my WREB exam starting tomorrow. It's a four day ordeal and holy crap I can't wait to be done with it. If I pass, then that's really the last major hurdle in my being able to practice. Then I just have to finish some requirements, but even if i stay a little later, I don't care, that is stuff that I can finish.
For now I will say goodbye and hopefully next time I post I will mention that I passed the WREBs.
So what's new? Well nothing much to be honest. Had a great weekend hanging out with some friends. Leila and Sayran had come to NY that was fun. Talk about shopping experts. Manal had come too and as usual we always have fun. She finally bought a real computer so now we can video chat. Other than that I'm just keeping uber busy with school. I had a 12 hour day today and I'll probably be getting a lot of those before graduation. Speaking of which, people you need to mentally prepare to come to NY for my graduation. I'm still trying to round up extra tickets to try to bring everyone in. We will see what happens.
Happy Birthday Sayran!
I have retrofitted Gotnose? to display videos now. I am sick of YouTube controlling the quality of my videos. Too many bugs in the system. Some videos I upload show up in high quality, others in absolutely crappy quality. The other thing that bothers me is that YouTube's high quality videos aren't really even all that high quality. I understand server load, but other sites are now showing much better quality videos as a standard. If YouTube doesn't do something about this soon, I think they will start losing their customer base and any advertisement revenue.
I have finally started packing for my trip back. Yes yes, premature right? No. 2 months ago I decided to start packing, but things got so busy for me that all of a sudden I only have 3 months left of school and nothing has been packed. So finally yesterday I decided to start on it. Everything that I was planning on donating to goodwill is now boxed up and ready to be delivered to them. I have four or five boxes worth of clothing that's ready to go. So starting tomorrow, when they open, I'm going to take one box a day until I'm done with all my boxes. I'm also going to start importing a movie a day and putting it up on Craigslist for sale. I don't want to ship back all my DVDs. Too many and honestly I watch them once and that's it. What's the point of having them? I prefer renting from iTunes these days. It's convenient and also doesn't waste space like purchasing DVDs.
I am officially down to 99 days till graduation. I can't wait to get things done and finished with. I need to start my RPD and my Onlay/Inlay. I also need to start job hunting. I have finally put my curriculum vitae up online for employers to see. Hopefully I find something sooner than later and something that I like.
Happy Birthday Ruba!
Other than that, nothing new has been going on in my life. I'm basically just waiting to try to get things done. The flu hit me the night I came back from Dallas, the 25th of January. I was in bed pretty much the entire week after that. Today I'm feeling better, although I can't seem to shake this cough yet. Hopefully in a couple of more days it will be completely gone. I can't wait to be able to sing again, my voice is completely gone these days. Aside from that, I'm presenting my senior portfolio case on Thursday and I feel prepared enough to handle it. It should be fun. Plus there will be a lot of doughnuts present.
So as of today I am still short on some requirements, but not many. I need to deliver another RPD soon. I also need a few implants to be placed. NYU has got to be the slowest working school in history. 3 months to get someone to place an implant for you is really unacceptable. That's half of your fourth year. And finding onlays; forget about it. I thought fourth year was supposed to be free of stress, but it doesn't feel like that. I suppose once I get my requirements done then I won't have to worry about it much. It seems like the school might be doing something about the implants, but they're not doing anything about the onlays. If they can waive our implant and onlay requirements (they did for other years) then all I would have to worry about is a single RPD. This I will get done ASAP and then you can consider me graduated. I really can't wait to be done with it all.
In the mean time I will keep dreaming about my future car and hopefully it will happen sooner than later.
Towards the end of March I plan on flying back to Dallas to place an order for a new car. I'm looking to purchase a BMW 335i. For the longest time I didn't like BMWs. Till recently once I started test driving the cars, the 335i very quickly grew on me. Its performance is very impressive and at the same time the car is a pleasure to drive. The only thing I hated about it previously was the iDrive system. But the new iDrive system is absolutely beautiful to use. As easy as an iPod. That is what sold the car for me. Once that was in place it was pretty much over for any of the other cars. Finally a quality car with an easy to use computer system. Not to mention 384 horses if I add Dinan to the car. I most likely will, although I'm not sure if I'm going to do it right away.
I have also gone apartment shopping and I have my heart set on The Venue apartments. New, stylish, right across the street from the Dart station and a symphony hall. Very easy access to the highway and the apartments themselves are my style, sans the ugly bamboo floors. Of course all of this depends on where I end up working. I don't want to have to drive two hours to work daily. Just not worth it. So in the mean time, all I have to do here is consolidate all my loans and finish my requirements. Oh and not to mention I have to find a job. The future comes soon I hope. I am very excited about starting life and really doing something worthwhile.
In other news, yesternight, very very late at night, or really early this morning, was an incredible time. I have to admit I had such a good time while I was in Dallas. I already miss being back there. The weather, the lifestyle, the simplicity of things and most importantly having Mazen around the entire time this time was so much fun. We played games till very late at night, reminded me of our old times together. No pressure, no dealing with whether people are happy or not. Simply nothing more than two best friends hanging out and relaxing, ignoring the fact that an outside world exists.
Happy New Year everyone! I am very very excited.
Nasser is sitting right next to me playing with Naomi trying to learn "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz for a wedding he's singing at tomorrow. It's the funniest sight in the world and the worst sound at the same time. I can't explain it. Other than that I have just written a new program for dad to make passport photos easily and produce 2 passport pictures at 600dpi. Winner? Who knows, it took me a week to write it and I'm proud that I even remotely remember how to program. It has been a very very long time.
Other than that, yesterday I went and saw David Letterman with Tom Cruise as the guest appearance. That was fun. Today I saw The People's Court. I think I might have pissed off Judge Milian. I asked her if I could sit in her chair and take a photo. She said no. I still would like to see Conan O'Brien and The Daily Show at some point. Who knows if that will happen, they're near impossible to get into.
Right now I'm sick and my voice is almost completely gone. What a horrible feeling. I'm just hoping to be over it by the time I fly home. Since last I posted on here I have uploaded a new video to YouTube. I actually have two versions of this, once where I used a good mic and it sounds great, and the one on YouTube. Why? Well the first one for some reason won't process and refuses to post itself on YouTube and so I was forced to record a second one. Oh well. Win some lose some. People seem to like it. So I can't complain I suppose.
Also, in my weekly shameless product promotion, for anyone who has a computer screen and is looking for a cleaner, look no further than RadTech's excellent and no residue OmniCleanz. This product outperforms any other product on the market because it doesn't leave the annoying residue most cleaners leave. Why this isn't wildly popular yet I have no idea but I am glad that I found and I will never use anything but this. The company has the ugliest website I have ever seen in my life, but man oh man, their products are just incredible. Every computer I purchase, I purchase the Sleevz for it almost blindly. By far one of the best purchases you can make to protect your investment.
Enough shameless advertising, I am sick and I'm going to do something else.
Yeah that's all! Goodnight.
In other news, Obama won. I couldn't be any happier. I have my skepticism but between him and McCain I am more than happy that he won. I feel like he might be able to restore this country back to what it should be. Bush has done enough crap to completely destroy the integrity of the United States throughout the world. I believe Obama will do the opposite. There is a lot that needs to be done and if it is done correctly, I will be more than happy to vote Obama's way next election. Maybe he can win Texas this time.
I'm thinking of completely redesigning my website. Maybe just making it not go 100% the length of the window. For those of you who have much larger screens than I do, I can see that being very very annoying.
Almost down to 27 weeks. Things in school are flying for me. I am finally beginning to get a lot of real work done and a lot of requirements met. Next week I set teeth for another RPD and if all goes well, I should have my second RPD done. Then one more RPD and I may never have to make one again. If I can only get my hands on an implant case and an onlay case, then I would pretty much bet set to graduate on time. Either way I can't wait to get things done here and get out of dental school. More than anything I can't wait to get a job and make a real living.
"Sir, I'm sorry but the next time you try to bring your computer for exchanging you will have to pay the 10% restocking fee."
"Maam, I'm sorry but if this doesn't work either I'm not paying a penny."
And you should have seen her eyes at that point. This is my third MacBook, seems like they all have a wireless problem right now. The connection is just too slow. Great job on this one Apple. The laptop is otherwise perfect, well... the first one and the third one were, the second one, not so much. I got it with a ding in the casing, the metal was much darker than any of their other MacBooks and the laptop itself ran much hotter than the first or third one. Yes... it must have been a manufacturing issue, I don't even know how it passed quality control. Wake up people and do your job, or I can come do it for you, but that probably wouldn't be such a good thing. I'm too detail oriented and probably 75% of the machines would not make it through. If I worked for Dell I would put them out of business on the crap they produce.
As you can see, I'm in a feisty mood today. Yeah Apple was giving me crap. First person I dealt with was absolute bliss, she was more than happy to exchange my computer. She tried it herself and immediately noticed the problem. Then she ushered me to the checkout line for the exchange. This guy had to check it himself or he wanted to charge 10%. Well fine, check away. He comes back and says nothing is wrong with it. Excuse me? Am I just imagining how horrible the networking is on this machine? It has got to be the worst wireless machine I have seen in my life. While any other computer on my networks downloads at 1MB/s (that's a million bytes per second), this one downloads at 20Kb/s (twenty thousand). Even this brand new that I just got back does the same thing. So now I attribute this to a software issue, considering that the computers were built in different plants at different times.
That being said, the last computer still needed to go back. It definitely had manufacturing issues. The hassle that I had to go through to return it was ridiculous. When I heard the clerk tell me I would have to pay 10% to exchange this computer for a functional one, well... I opened my mouth. His eyes widened and the surprise just took him over. After arguing and essentially telling him he's wrong and that I know more about networking than he does (which I do by the way), he manages to call the tech support. After telling tech support that they are also wrong that's when he started throwing the manager word around.
Lets make this easy on you, you can't do anything about this so let me just talk to your manager and I'll take care of it.
Yes I wish I can help you but it's really out of my hands, it's a good idea you talk to her.
He walks off for about five minutes, I look to the side I see him discussing something with the manager, then returns.
OK, we will remove the 10% restocking fee.
Five minutes later the manager comes to and has the guts to mutter the second line of this post. And my reply you have already read.
Bottom line: fuck you if you think I'm going to pay for a shitty product and then pay more to have it fixed.
For the exciting news, at least nerd exciting news, I have finally bought a new computer. I've been wanting to upgrade for a while and I've been waiting on Apple to come out with something worthwhile. They finally have, all new incasing that is built like a rock. This thing feels like my PowerBook G4, up till now, my all time favorite laptop. I believe that this machine will quickly replace that however. Being so sturdy I can't help but be impressed with what Apple has done here. Some will say it's too expensive, but not me. No, not at all. I know the difference between a BMW and a Ford just like I know the difference between an Apple and a Dell. I am absolutely happy with my brand new MacBook. With the backlit keys and such it has to be one of the most beautiful computers I've ever seen. Only thing that's lacking: FireWire. Why Apple chose not to include FireWire in this machine is beyond me. I suppose to differentiate between the high end and the consumer, but for me, I think they could've done it some other ways. Get rid of Ethernet before FireWire. Us musicians need our FireWire ports to hook up our control interfaces. Oh well, I guess I now have to wait for something good to come out on USB. This brings me to my next point.
I bought the computer, which means my music hardware won't work with it. No need to worry though, my M-Audio crap interface died on me recently. So this left me in the unique position of needing another interface to my computer. Since I haven't purchased one yet, I had the freedom to choose between FireWire and USB. So unlucky and lucky at the same time, I could get my computer and not worry too much about me not being able to get my hardware working properly. This also brings me to my other next point. I don't know why I'm trying to build a studio here considering that I plan on moving very soon after I graduate. So lately what I have been doing is actually just selling all of my hardware. I'm down to headphones, 2 mics, a horrible and no longer on their site M-Audio Radium MIDI controller and a foot pedal. What I figure is that once I start working in Dallas, I can build a real studio with much better equipment or simply go to a studio and just record. I'd prefer the latter considering that I absolutely hate recording music. I'm a live guy I decided. It's a lot more fun.
So I didn't mean for this to sound like a tech blog, but it surely does. In any case I will leave you with this: get a new MacBook.
I have registered for the second part of my national boards and I'm scheduled to take it November 14 and 15th. It is a two day exam and I'm hoping to knock it out in one shot. No issues to deal with here. I have also been working on my uncle's website, which is now open for criticism. The point of the site is to be straight to the point. No frills or anything too fancy. Just display the information and do it in a very neat, organized and straight forward manner. I think it is successful in that aspect and I feel like I have managed to make it pretty enough to look at and hold someone's interest. Now to brainstorm how I want to do the gallery...
I decided to put a sign downstairs in my building for computer repair. A fifty dollar flat fee repair service, just bring your machine over and I will handle the rest. Whether it is removing viruses, installing hardware and so forth, I am hoping to make a little bit of money so that I can fly home whenever I feel like it. It will also give me something to do in my spare time other than shop.
And tonight I will leave you with this and this.
Manal was here this weekend and we had a blast as usual. Last night while I was at work she went grocery shopping and surprised the hell out of me. I have a fridge full of food now! I can eat for a week at least and believe me I am going to make everything that there is to make here. Veggie dogs, veggie nuggets, pizza, hamburgers, chicken skewers, the works! And maybe I'm gonna make Baleela too. As of today nothing entirely exciting happened. One of my patients had a seizure while she was in my chair, otherwise it is business as usual. Still trying to get all my requirements done by December so that I can completely relax next semester and have absolutely nothing to worry about. Hopefully I will be successful.
Right now it's back to watching The A-Team for me.
So I just came back from my first day as an official D4 student today. I have to say I enjoyed Dallas so much this trip around. I mean non stop hanging out with friends, family, jet skis, lakes, swimming pools and cuts of filet mignon. I have also managed to go car shopping, apartment shopping and eat at IHOP. Oh how I miss IHOP right now. Appetizer sampler, no chicken, fries instead and a short stack. That is carb loading that would make my mouth water, if I wasn't dehydrated right now.
I'm coming down to Dallas next week. So how's a nice get together sound? I think it is time to begin planning for that. Should be pretty exciting. See you soon Dallas.
Now I'm laying down across three seats, I lucked out, the two seats next to me were empty. First class couldn't outclass me here. Now my bag is on the side of the window seat, my head is on it, it is the most uncomfortable pillow I have ever had, but at least I just slept for an hour and a half. And tonight, I will sleep comfortably and as always in Texas, it will be very quiet and worth every minute. Of course this will happen after the traditional run to IHOP. If everyone is still game.
Happy Father's Day!
Ah spontaneity, the things you make me do. Two hours ago I was at home, laying in bed, thinking to myself I really want to go home. I pulled up the internet, booked a flight and hopped a cab, all in about 10 minutes time. Now I am in the air somewhere, making my way to Houston first and Dallas soon after. Yes it is true, I did something unexpected. My parents have no idea. Everyone is meeting me at IHOP once I land and I am going to eat then surprise them. Or maybe the other way around? Who knows. In any case, I'm looking forward to resting.
I had a great time in Texas. I missed everyone so much. Now I'm thinking of planning another trip somewhere around mid or late May. I need to be away from here, from all the drama and anything associated with school. I haven't been creative at all. I feel like I'm drying up and I just can't think of anything to make, write, produce, record, etc...
If studying was a man, it would be gayer than Richard Simmons because it is annoying and persistent.
Ahhh the relaxation station. Life is good when you have some time to do whatever you want and that's exactly what we're going to do.
Do you really care that much about how well my apartment is sealed? I didn't think so. To be honest neither do I. I'm just tired of writing the same thing over and over about school. So I won't. Instead I will indulge you in my other other schooling interest. I am thinking of taking this spring break in a programming boot camp. Yes, I'm a nerd. Yes, it's supposed to be vacation. Do I care? Not really. I find it relaxing anyway and I do it in my spare time so really, it is in a weird way vacation. Besides, once I graduate I might not do dentistry at all. I might end up being one of the odd balls out there who dedicates a decade of my life to one discipline and end up doing something completely different. I have a lot of ideas. A lot of creative ideas. They just float in my head. I can't get rid of them and I can't seem to stop thinking about them really. It's how I think I suppose, with just about everything. Kind of explains why I go through waves of hobbies. For a few months, guitar, few months painting, few months programming, etc...
Prince Ali fabulous he, Ali Ababwaaaaa.
I haven't written any new music since I have come out with the album and in fact, I have barely played any guitar. I don't know what it is lately, but I just haven't been in the mood. I'm definitely sick of school. I have to admit that they just like to make things difficult for the sake of making things difficult. No real advantage to it, I think they just find it kind of fun. Oh well. Soon it will all be over and I will be on a beach somewhere relaxing. Making a living and enjoying life as much as I can.
2008 will lead to my fourth and final year of this hell hole people call dental school. I cannot wait to reach the end of June and beginning of July where school simply becomes a job. A job that I happen to be able to do very effectively and very well. Here's to you kid.
Happy New Year everyone!
I'm back in Dallas right now. I've been having a great time catching with my friends and with my family. I have finally convinced my dad to get a Mac. Only took several years to do but the way I see it. Since I'm the repair guy, he's going to buy what I deem is good for purchase. Truthfully, I just got sick of fixing viruses every 10 days. Too much work and I don't have the time for it. With the Mac I won't have to worry about that. Simply I just get the work done that I need and I can do it much easier thanks to Leopard's screen sharing feature.
So now what else? Well nothing else. I'm going to enjoy my time off from school and just relax. The weather here is going to be just beautiful. 60's for most of the week. I can't complain about that. It is a great week. Good friends, good food, great family and my first album.
It is official. I have written my first song on Ukulele. I will record it soon and probably have it up one day. It is simple and very short but it is relaxing. I wrote it while I was in bed, on the spot. So simple I memorized it instantly. It is a song for someone special.
Less than 2 weeks I will be making my way back home to Dallas. I can't wait to make the trip. It is going to be excellent and more than exciting to see my family again. Be around all my friends (my extended family). I can't wait to relax for two weeks without a thought given to anything other than sleep, food, relaxation.
Happy Birthday Hani!
Slow down world. I walked around the city for a few hours this Saturday. Everyone was in a rush. Like the world was going to end tomorrow. Made me sad. Dodging between the drunks and the hobos. Step by step trying to reach my never ending destination. What an eye opener. To see the world as a single person. No difference between the poorest and the richest. The coolest and socially challenged. The prettiest and the ugliest. Everyone has faults and everyone is amazing at the same time. Like a game. Teasing you. Giving you just the right amount of insight. Just the wrong amount of insight. I guess that's life. You can never justify why people are the way they are. What small glimpse of light changed their life, and what major event never crossed their minds. What made them the way they are and what made them the way they are not.
Well I know I make you cry and sometimes you wanna die but do you really feel alive without me?... Cheers darling here's to you and your...
I'm kind of excited about finding out how I did on the boards. I hope that I passed, and more so I hope that I did very well on them. Not that it is that big of a deal for me, but it is nice to have the option to specialize if I ever chose to do so. Too far to think about I supposed. Right now I'm getting ready to get a good night's sleep, in a very quiet city. No horns, ambulances, police or any screaming kids outside the window. No not here. Just serenity.
Enough about that, the barbecue was a great success. Even people who said they couldn't make it, ended up coming. We ran out of food entirely. But it wasn't my fault, more people showed up than I had expected. It was great!
On another note, my Treo finally decided to die on me. Yes. I'm going to miss it. Not really, I hated that phone. So finally a couple of days ago I went out and got myself a new phone. I have to say, still the best phone I ever owned, even if it does need some improvements.
That's about it as far as my updates go. I am starting a new chapter in my life and hopefully it will be good. I am just sad that I am going to end my vacation so soon and go back to that bland life people call dental school. It will be worth it in the end, no question. But somehow that doesn't make it any less bland.
So far I have met a total of 5 people on this trip, two older ladies, one 11 year old girl, a woman desperately trying to catch the next flight (standby is horrible) and Ravi, who happens to be a mainframe programmer (old school). I slept a total of about 2 hours last night and I am very tired. Still I can't help but feel a bit of excitement to finally be on my way home to Plano. I will be able to get a good night's sleep and hopefully concentrate some more on studying.
Out of the need to avoid studying, I have been updating my resume lately. I have to say it is horrible. There is nothing dentally related in it at all. How am I going to get a job getting out of school? Too far to think about I suppose. I'm sure when the time comes to it, I'll be able to swing one. For right now, boards. That's all I'm supposed to think about.
I'm comin home momma! sneaky sneaky.
My voice is completely gone right now. Coincidentally, I've been working on some new music. Three new, angry/sad songs. My usual style. Of course right now all the recordings sound horrible because I sound like a 12 year old kid who is just hitting puberty. Kind of entertaining actually.
These I am getting ready to take part one of the dental boards, AKA NBDE. I am tired of exams. Very tired of them. This school that I am in, really isn't helping with studying either, instead they are just giving us busy paperwork to do and clinic hours. Thanks, but no thanks, I can't wait to be done with you.
Logic. Apple is holding off on releasing an update to Logic. It has been several years and it is WAY overdue for a new release. So today I decided to look at some things and I found some interesting stuff. First of all, their other audio app was just updated. More importantly they have the manual for the application online now. Interestingly enough, when you look at the manual you see all the same effects that were in Logic are now in this program, but... they are updated. Meaning Apple is doing work on them. This leads me to believe that we will see a new update to Logic very soon. In fact, I'm willing to bet that when Apple finally releases OS X 10.5 (Leopard), we will see a whole new Logic. Very optimized and ready for some real grunt work. Hopefully it will have the tools that I need to basically, just clean up my audio. If I can get a clean recording of my vocals and my guitar, then really I wouldn't need anything else. Unfortunately, I live in New York in a studio. Maybe I will make a recording booth out of 4" styrofoam. Really, I might. It is an excellent way to go and a good way to get a clean signal.
It is a good time to just relax and be myself for a while.
Right now I'm trying to find a plane ticket to come home for a weekend sometime in July. They are so damn expensive. Why they are so expensive I'm really not sure of but it is incredible how much they cost. I've ran across tickets in the vicinity of about 2000 dollars. That is just incredible to me. If anything I might try to get a standby ticket. Those look promising.
Exciting! Or maybe not, depends on how much you smoked.
So what about the hookah? It is not the same as cigarettes, in fact, it is filtered through water and is a much safer smoke. Well first of all, preliminary research by the World Health Organization (WHO) has found that smoking the hookah for one hour is about the equivalent of smoking anywhere from 100-200 cigarettes. Now lets think about this, if the average smoker inhales one pack a day, then smoking the hookah for 1 hour is about five days worth for a regular smoker. If you don't believe me, you can check out some articles on the matter here, here, and here.
Now also to tackle another myth about smoking in general. There is never a "too little to cause damage" when it comes to smoking. That is the reality of the matter. Take it from a future dentist, there is no way around it. The health risks are just too great. Quit while you can and while you're still healthy enough to do so, because once you have that all of sudden, still in your 30's heart attack... it is just too late. Also, keep in mind, that just because you are a smoker does not mean that you are stuck that way. Damage IS REVERSIBLE. Do not let anyone tell you anything different.
Nothing else is new. Just busy with my last four exams coming up. I cannot wait to be completely done with them. Then all I have to worry about will be the boards.
As some of you may know, I have a new ukulele that Nisha got me on my birthday. I love that thing. I get a kick out of following her around the apartment and annoying her till she is ready to hit me. Life is good. Three more weeks and I will be done with all my classes of 2nd year. Then all I have to worry about will be the boards. Ah beautiful beautiful freedom. Of course I haven't been studying that much, but I'm trying to today for Systems. I need to make sure to pass this class, it is one that I really don't want to repeat at all.
I still haven't written a song since the last time I complained about writing a song. Oh well, on the good news I am beginning to learn French and I'm hoping to start hitting the French much harder once I am finally done with the boards. I've also been selling things on eBay and basically getting rid of everything I can get rid of. Mainly software that I don't use anymore. It is about time. I used up that money basically to buy clothes for clinic. Yes they were expensive, but at least I can look sharp for patients.
Other than my trip to Texas, nothing new has been going on. Life is merely repeating itself now, with exam after exam after exam. At least I will be starting clinic soon and will begin to have my patients very soon as well. That is something that I am looking forward to. Hopefully I'll learn something from the experience before I take my part one dental boards.
44 days, 1 hours, 38 minutes and 39 seconds till D2 is over with. Yes I have a counter as part of my collection of Dashboard Widgets. I am slowly counting down to how many days and weeks I have left before this hell hole that they call a semester ends. I don't understand why this school does things this way.
To clear up what I mean, I feel like I am disposable at this school and that everything just repeats over and over and over and... well you get the point. Disparity and popularity are worries no more. This isn't high school after all. No one cares about this stuff anymore. Not to say that I ever have, I didn't. But you can imagine the different setting between here and there, now and then, tomorrow and yesterday. The intensity that leads supposedly good people to try anything to get a head start on their classmates. To write fake exams and then pass them off. To steal other people's work and pass it off as your own. Sometimes people can really surprise me.
In the political front, I would like everyone to take notice of a presidential candidate named Mike Gravel. He is one of the best candidates I have ever hear speak about real issues. He is very frank and honest and he definitely has my vote. Check him out on You Tube.
Happy birthday Masa.
Now onto the good stuff. I had a great weekend otherwise. Friday I had some friends over and it was a blast. Everyone enjoyed their time as usual. Saturday Nisha made me strawberry shortcake. It was nothing short of excellence. I devoured every single bit of it. Sunday Apple released a new version of Final Cut Pro. But I can care less. I don't use it at all. The end of the night we went out to a friend's congratulation dinner. He is getting married. I also finally booked my ticket back home for a visit. I can't wait. It'll be less than a month from now.
In other news, I am playing the talent show this coming Thursday. I hope I do well and hopefully it is as much fun as last year. I'm out.
So what is new you say? Well, I'm almost 25, I'm in the best shape of my life. I'm getting ready to have patients soon. I have new strings on my guitar. I also took a week's vacation to Punta Cana in the Dominican Republic that was as relaxing as could be. I also got some great shots while I was there. Only thing about it is that I got burnt to a crisp, to the point where my nose blistered and hemorrhaged. That wasn't good, but now it's almost completely healed and so I'm over it. Last week I got my wisdom tooth extracted (32 for all you dentists) and I'm still swelled up from it. Tomorrow I'm going to go run by the clinic again to make sure everything checks. Right now the side of my face is bruised (3rd bruise of my life) and I'm really just wanting this to be over with so that I can eat and go to the gym again.
I'm still in my music writing block. I'm very annoyed by it.
If you want to see some pictures from my trip, you can look at the Photo section of this site. My Flickr account or if you want a whole lot of pictures (174 from this trip to be exact) you can check out gotnose.com (my other other site). You will need a password for gotnose, you can email me for it.
The past few weeks have been very up and down. From dealing with stressed out examiners and fixing some email issues to relaxing. I don't know what to say. Life is interesting to say the least. And in even more interesting terms, I will leave you with quotes from an interview with Bob Garfield asking questions and Bill Gates answering them and being a complete no sense of humor ass.
GATES: I can't comment on someone else's ad.
GARFIELD: OK… but he's you.
GATES: Yeah, I'm not gonna comment on someone else's ad.
GARFIELD: OK, well, Bill Gates, thank you so much for joining us.
GARFIELD: Can I just have a clean goodbye?
GARFIELD: OK, can you just say goodbye? Thank you or goodbye or something like that?
Fun times Bill. Fun times...
Onto other things. Life is good these days. I am very excited to go to the Dominican Republic during Spring Break. It is going to be a blast. We are staying at the Puntacana Hotel. I plan on having a good time there and hopefully getting some good pictures up as well. I will post them on Got Nose? if you have access. If you want access just shoot me an email and you might get it. If I feel nice that day.
Other than that, I'm still having a real hard time writing music these days. Don't know what it is, but I feel like I'm in a block right now. Just stuck without the ability to write music. I don't know what it is but I'm hoping a good week of vacation will clear things up for me a bit. Who knows. In the mean time, I am currently lucky enough to have a six pack stomach but for vacation I'm trying to go for an eight pack. Something that I had a few years back when I had time to work out consistently. It is a challenge that I'm hoping to meet very soon. Also, I just had a though. Something that I have not done in a long time is to go to the country, make a fire with a bunch of friends and just chill and hang out. Play guitar and tabla. Yes I'm a hippy I know. But just wait till I get a ukulele, Then I will be a beach hippy.
Now onto better and more important things. I have finally purchased my own hookah. This is not to say that I didn't have one before this, but this is the first time that I, me, myself, Mohannad, have purchased it. Normally I get other people to bring them to me from somewhere else. Now I know this is super expensive and it is way overpriced, but I didn't care. I don't want to wait months before getting one from overseas and I don't really feel like asking someone the favour of getting one. I am in a good mood but kind of bummed out. I am in a good mood because the exam is over with and I survived yet another one. Bummed out just because I'm bummed out. It is really odd how things work out in a relationship. So many distractions in life and so many things get in the way that it is really hard to enjoy each other. I mean why even be in one really if all you're worried about are other things? On top of that goodness, I always wonder about friends as well.
People in general actually. Why is it that people find it really hard to admit when they're wrong? Pride has such and ugly side to it. It can cause major conflicts yet sustains a person's confidence. It can numb someone's feelings and empower an observer with feelings. I am the man, you are the woman. I wear the pants in the house. I call the shots. Why are you looking at her? My morals are better than yours. You have no manners. I am down and so you have to be too. I really feel dumber listening to you. You don't have the guts to say that? No, I don't care about it, I'm just mad that you don't care either. Why am I here? I can do better. You are lucky to have me. No. Fuck you! Then go find someone better. I'm sick of it all. Why even bother?
I've swayed. This is not how I want to live my life and we both will have to change.
I am exciting about being able to go and play tennis outdoors and just hanging out outside anyway. Life is good and it will only get better with the better weather. OK, I'm off to studying now.
So what's new these days? Nothing much here, just studying for our exam on Wednesday and our two other exams next week. Only three exams this month, I love it. Other than that nothing too exciting has been happening. I'm going to my gym on a regular basis. Attending my classes no a semi-regular basis, playing my guitar everyday and lately working on three future additions to my music section. I guess some exciting stuff has been happening. Exciting for me at least. Alright, I'm off to studying.
Lets see, to sum up what happened over break. I finally played tennis again with friend/cousin/sister Doa and had a blast. I also just bought a tennis racket for myself here. It has been over a year otherwise since I've played. Too long. I also went to a recording studio to hopefully be able to record at least one song. Since I wasn't paying though, you can imagine it was something on the back burner for the studio. They got booked and I never got to record. Most likely this summer though. Or maybe in March I'll have a real studio under my hands and someone can engineer my music. That will be an experience for me and a whole lot of fun really. I have also managed to kick everyone's ass in bowling and in one night fix every electronic my parents own. Other than that I did the usual hanging out with my family and my friends. I had a good time. Maybe Hawaii for spring break?
I started off this semester in good shape. Today I finished all the work assigned in lab, which is nice considering that I don't have to go to the gym late tonight and I can instead maybe go to the movies or something with Nisha. It will be our second date after an ordeal that I don't want to talk or think about. Our first date was New Years Eve. It was excellent to say the least.
Happy New Year
So the next two weeks are going to be fun for me. I’m going to spend a lot of time with my brothers and my cousins. Good times. As of several hours ago, I am officially on vacation. That’s all.
Oh, one more thing. This is the last post of the year. It is exciting isn't it? New Year's resolution? I'm not really much for those. Work on more music, less school. Just kidding. I'll think of one later.
Yesterday Vienna Tang is playing at a local bar but I did not go. I mean she’s good but I’m not the biggest fan in the world, besides, I’d rather keep busy studying this couple of weeks and relax on my winter break with my little brother Louay and my overly sensitive cousin Nasser. He’s sensitive because it’s his birthday. So girly. Anyway, I am told by Louay that I will be playing Final Fantasy XII so I guess I already have plans. Sounds like fun to me anyway.
In other exciting news, I’m going to study. Happy Birthday Nasser. Now stop being so sensitive.
I think my creativity has been shot this week. I really have no desire to do anything. Nothing with my website, nothing with my music, photography, art, apartment, anything at all. Don’t know what’s going on. Maybe after the couple of exams that I have coming up I’ll be back in the game. Maybe I just need a break, who knows. Anyway, that’s all for now.
Happy early birthday Savera!
Phospholipase A2. Who cares? I surely don’t. That’s not a disease to me and never will be a disease. Memorizing a pathway doesn’t explain the disease, nor does it help me understand its pathogenesis. Just like knowing how a computer is built really explains nothing to you about the actual computer itself. Beyond school I am beginning to have a problem with the doctoral community in general. The I’m too good attitude. The drive to keep doctors above the rest, as if it is really the only reason behind being a doctor in the first place. We are taught at school that we must “speak like doctors.” We must speak the language of doctors. Why? Is it so that we can say some big words in front of patients to make them feel as if we know something magical. All these words, originating from latin, greek, what have you… and the point? Nothing in my opinion, just to separate us it seems. You can easily explain most terms in everyday English as it is. Aphthous ulcer, makes it sounds like you have a disease, turns out to be a regular every day canker sore. You know the type that is brought on by stress. They hurt. They cause pain. Or dolor in the (medical terms). The have a little bid of redness (rudor) on the outside (periphery) of the injury (lesion). I guess this is just a personal preference, but I don’t really think I want to abide by the high and mighty status quo that is expected.
Okay, enough ranting. I think I’m just bitter from the last test. Truth be told there is probably a good reason to “speaking like a doctor.” When I find it, I’ll probably let you know. Now to the good. Yesterday Nisha decides to blind fold me in the apartment, walk me all the way to the street. Put me in a cab and lo and behold, we get out in front of a small bar called The Living Room. To my surprise, and surprised I was, Joshua Radin was playing over there that night and the place was so small I could literally take 4 or 5 steps and shake the guy’s hand. He is unbelievable live, sounds exactly like he does on the album. That CD has been consistently playing since the day I heard it in the first place. Through him I also heard about Priscilla Ahn, who sounds excellent as well and I actually added her to my favourites in the music section of this site. It’s just a small clip, but you can hear the rest on her MySpace page. Also I added my own songs as well. Me and You and She Kissed Me. I like both of them and they vary greatly from my usual style. She Kissed Me is beginning to be a favourite of mine and so things are good in that department. Right now I have to get to studying.
Happy Belated Halloween and Happy Birthday Hani (you're almost 30)
- Nisha got me pumpkin seeds. Yumm.
- I’m working on a new song. Kind of. Well maybe not. If I am, you will be surprised.
- I returned the Nikon D200 two weeks ago, I’m still sad about it. Knowing me I’m probably going to buy it again. Tonight… err. Can’t, gotta study.
- I have Windows Vista running, it sucks about as much as XP does.
- Earthlink sucks. They need to make their DNS standard just like every other provider out there. I hate it when it re-routes to their dumb web-page every single time you type in a wrong page.
- I am no longer webmaster for my class. Yepeeeeee.
- I’ve been fasting and drinking fat shakes at night. Talk about Ying and Yang. I lost six pounds, even with my 2200 calorie per serving fat shake. The good news, my shoulder is doing much better and I’ve been consistently working out the past couple of weeks. But I’m not pushing it hard because I don’t want to mess it up again.
- OK, gotta go and study for Radiology.
Got a new bed, I’m working on the photography section of HummingSoft, and hopefully it will be complete soon. I’m trying to automate it so that all I have to do is just upload the pictures and the website itself will take care of producing and formatting the page.
I met Nisha’s parents a little over a week ago. Had a great time. Very cool people and lots of fun to be around. I smell food. Seriously, pizza I think. Later.
Tomorrow Apple comes out with something new. Is it going to be exciting? I hope so. Is it going to be Logic? Probably not. Anyway, Nisha and I are looking for furniture for the apartment and also some tool boxes for school... because the school likes to give us everything thrown together, in one big box and we’re supposed to actually find it all. Crazy. Seriously. So I’m still considering getting the Nikon D200, but right now I guess I’m going to use the D50 till I feel like it’s worth having a D200.
I am playing guitar this Sunday at some dinner thing the school is having. I don’t really even know what it’s for but hey, it’ll be fun. Only doing one song. It’s not a show. What’s the song? I didn’t pick it. Ryan Cabrera - True. I know, whatever, someone else is singing it. So that works out for me.
I don’t have internet access at home. I won’t have it till Sept, 23rd. Man I’m really needing it right now. Till then, peace out.
Second year here I come . I will win.
Nisha and I went looking at furniture for my apartment. I think I’m going to end up just getting things at IKEA. I just want a new bed and a couple of lounge chairs. For those who have seen my bed, yes I love it, but the problem is that I don’t have a backboard. I am one of those sleepers that pushes the pillow up with my head while sleeping so it just keeps falling off. Also I have nothing to lean back on when I’m using my computer, so that is just not going to work for me. I guess I’m going to be selling and purchasing a new bed all together. In New York that is a major pain in the ass. I have to make appointments with my building to move the old bed out and an appointment to move the new bed in. Go figure. Nothing can be easy there.
Things I’m looking forward to…
• August 4, 2006 - Duncan Sheik is playing a very intimate concert and I can’t wait to go to that. His last album was greatness and I haven’t seen him play in such a long time. I missed him in New York you know.
• August 7, 2006 - Apple is going to introduce Leopard to the world and release new Macs. Not that I care about the new Macs but Leopard I’m VERY excited about.
• August 9, 2006 - Nikon is releasing a new DSLR 10.2 MP Camera. Yes, I know I just bought one but if this thing comes out and it’s the right price. I’m selling the one that I just bought (it’s past return date) and buying the new one. That is if the price is right. Crazy? Naaaah, not at all. It’s a 4 megapixel difference. Meaning that basically it’s the difference of a whole new camera. Worth it in my opinion.
Hi Nisha, I finally posted about you. :)
I’m typing this on a brand new black Macbook. I had originally bought a white one but the top pad was getting dirty (a defect with the plastic itself) and I wasn’t sure if Apple was going to acknowledge the problem. So I jumped the gun and bought a black one. To be honest though, I’m glad I did. I love it, even though it cost more. The thing runs wonderfully outside of being a little bit too warm. Still, almost 4 hours battery life and it is FAST.
Now beyond that I haven’t been doing much. I changed my guitar strings earlier today and went to the David Letterman show sometime last week I think. It was pretty good with one exception, I sat up top - all the way up to the right - and the screens hanging from the top of the studio were covering Dave. So for the most part I just watched him on TV anyway. The studio is very small by the way. It looks big on TV but when you get there, it’s very tiny. Something that surprised me.
Outside of that I have not written any new music at all, in fact, I haven’t been playing any guitar lately. I don’t know what it is, but I’m just not in the mood. I downloaded Windows Vista Beta 2. Installed it and got it running just fine. Seems kind of OK. Nothing really ground breaking in it to be honest. A lot less than what I was expecting. So far it seems like a new GUI wrapper for the same old Windows. Where is the innovation?
Disparity is sorrow. Who would’ve thought. It is 3:30AM and I'm going to go to bed now.
I’m about to grab a bite of bread and olive oil. I had my cholesterol checked and it is high. Now I’m trying to increase my HDL intake and lower my LDL intake. It isn’t really hard so far.
I’m going home soon and I can’t wait. July 6th will be the day.
In case you haven’t noticed, today marks the new design day for my site. I haven’t changed the look in so long and I just got tired of it so spent a bit of time working on this new design. I think it is much more streamlined and works very well. Everything is now in one section with the journal highlighted since it is the one thing that I change on a regular basis.
Other than that, nothing really new is going on. Just keeping up with school and trying to make it till I can come home and see my family.
Life is beautiful these days, the weather is good and I’m really enjoying it. Right now I’m just getting ready for tomorrow’s exam and relaxing at the same time. I’ve been playing Darwinia all day and at first the game started off a bit boring. Then after a little bit you get into it and it’s great. I definitely need a new computer now though. This game is killing mine.
I got second place in the talent show about 10 days ago. That was a great moment I must admit. It was great doing the show, pictures are up on gotnose and they look good. Yesterday I was two seconds away from buying a Nikon D50. Then I thought about it again and decided I’ll hold off on buying the camera. I’m going to wait a bit longer, possibly till after I buy my computer. Rumors are that Apple will be releasing computers sometime this month. More importantly they are rumored to be the computers that I’m waiting on. We will see. Wish me luck tomorrow!
Now I have a bowl of Cream of Wheat right in front of me. I have decided to actually try to eat breakfast these days. Of course, since this is the first time I ever make this stuff, it is interesting to note that without sugar this tastes absolutely horrible. There is no way I am going to finish this bowl. What is of more interest that even a small bit of sugar will make this otherwise horrible meal absolutely delicious. A hint of cinnamon in it just to give it a small kick and I’m good to go. Next time though, make it with milk rather than water.
Good day to you and good to everyone around you. I am redesigning the site right now for a more uniform look and one section rather than the current two (portfolio and personal). It will take a while but when I’m done I hope that you will enjoy it more.
Now I have an exam coming up tomorrow that just isn’t really worth studying for and an Organ Systems exam coming up Monday of next week that I have been studying for. It is really amazing, in the next month or so I will take four more exams for this class alone. Did they just decide to have the longest class ever created? Boring. Other than that things have been going relatively well with one major exception.
Naomi, my guitar, has cracks in the finish. Yes yes, I know, it’s my fault. I have not been keeping it humid and in New York, the winter gets VERY dry. Because of this the neck of the guitar shrunk and the finish cracked. I’m in the process or re-humidifying the guitar and I have high hopes for the neck. The cracked finish however is a different story, this one does not look like it’s going to fix itself. I might have to go into surgery on it using amalgamator (not a dental term in this case) and some new lacquer, glass, tape, sand paper and buffer. Yes it’s a process but this is also a very special guitar. Aside from the guitar, I have also received a new mic that I bought recently from Guitar Center for a very good price. I’m glad to say that the mic sounds beautiful and the results are very clean. I cannot say enough as to how good this mic performs. After all, if it wasn’t this good, I would not have been wanting it for the past several years.
Now if only I can get the guitar fixed, then my life would be back in order. I bought an extra humidifier for it that should arrive at the end of this week. That along with a hygrometer to keep in the case so I can test water level and make sure it’s on par. It is really interesting what the guitar does when it’s dry, as if it’s a living organism. It shrinks and shows you first signs of thirst by having a rough rippled like finish. Then the wood warps and become concave to where it is no longer perfectly flat. During all of this, the smell of fine cedar and rosewood simply disappears and the neck shrinks exposing the ends of the frets, making for a painful playing experience. My highest recommendations to any quality guitar owner is to buy a guitar humidifier immediately and a hygrometer. They will save you hundreds and maybe even thousands of dollars in the future. As of now, the smell of my guitar is coming back and the body is straightening up quite a bit, but will it go back to original condition? I hope so, but unlikely.
Here’s to Naomi
The vacation couldn’t have gone any better. All I really needed was my guitar and it probably would’ve been perfect.
A simple post for a simple week.
There really hasn’t been much going on outside of studying. Just basically keeping busy with things to be honest. Trying to get more organized and waiting for the answer keys to my Neuroanatomy/Organ Systems exam to be released. The overly paranoid instructors have decided to have our system release the keys at exactly 11:10 am. What’s up with that? It doesn’t really matter I guess, 13 more minutes. I did so bad on this test that I am just hoping to pass at this point. In fact, if I make a 60 I will be, not exactly satisfied, but in good standing I believe. The test was a lot trickier than any of the past year exams. I will most likely check my grade before even finishing this post. In fact, I just checked my Health Promotion grade, made an A in the class, so that is good news.
Well, there you go, I just finished checking Neuroanatomy, didn’t pass, but I did make a 64, so I guess that leaves me some room for the next four exams to bring my grades back up. Oh well, at least this week is done with now and I don’t have to worry about anything for next week. Over all, it is a lukewarm day for me.
I'm thinking of completely dropping Gotnose and instead getting a .Mac account for my journal and for my pictures. I haven't really decided but Apple now has created yet another addition to their iLife suite called iWeb. Anyway, it really takes the brain work out of creating a journal and really would make my life much easier as far as keeping it up to date. The only thing is that I might lose my archives and I really don't want that. I don't know, I have to think about things I guess. It is a big decision for me after all. I have had this journal for several years now and I love updating it. I guess for now I'll keep it.
Anyway, life is grand, enjoy it before you die. Or, if you're my brother, life's a bitch and then you die (inside joke). I think I'm going to go to bed now.
In case you haven’t noticed. I’m in an odd mood. I’m not angry, I’m not happy, I’m not sad. I’m bored and right now I just feel like I am here. No one needs me and I don’t really need anyone. Sleep is starting to sound like fun to me. I have other plans though. I’m going to play guitar and this time with a metronome and practice counting while I’m playing. Yeah, I’ve been playing for 7 years so far and even though my rhythm is doing well, it is not perfect. By perfect I mean recording studio perfect, where I can play something and have it hit beat with absolute preciseness. Meaning within nano-seconds of the beat. If I can get this, it would make my recording life MUCH easier. I would be able to create loops and simply mix and really start enjoying the process.
Life is beautiful. I can’t explain it. Like I said earlier, I am in a weird mood. I feel like creating something great, something that no one can take away from me. I just don’t know what yet. On another note, have you ever noticed that the “i” comes after “e” in weird? Isn’t it odd that the word “weird” itself is spelled weirdly?
I was over at my cousin’s place and we watched a movie called Dark City. It is old and rather obscure, not many people remember it but it was a good movie never the less. It did get me thinking though. About individuality. What makes us have separate personalities? Is it a genetic medium or classical conditioning? Maybe it’s a combination of both. Could it be that our personalities are basically a series of responses, repeated responses to stimuli? Responses that are controlled genetically and through classical conditioning? That has to be it. Repeated events in our lives shape how we think and how we respond. They also shape what we expect and how we perceive other people’s expectations. Everything in life is a random event. Even things people do intentionally, if you look at them from a worldwide perspective, every single action is a random event. The real beauty though is that every single action has a reaction of some kind. So I do something and something else happens. I type, you read. It’s like a dance. That is how I would describe individuality. A dance.
What else to discuss? I’m trying to take on NYC. Trying to go out and enjoy myself and find my niche in this place. It really is an interesting place to live. It seems that at night the city lights up the most. At night this city is beautiful. At night, most of the stuff that I like doing doesn’t exist. It is a tough balance really. The hardest thing is finding the right people. Still I’m trying to enjoy myself as much as possible and have been generally having a good time here. Speaking of time and its amazing ability to lurk behind you, ticking, ticking, ticking, waiting for you to wake up from your trance and leave your ohms behind you, mine has stopped. I have an early and late day tomorrow. It will be filled with many nods of my head, attempting and trying even maybe perusing the idea of staying awake in class.
On another note, I have been in the market for a new laptop and my favourite company has just released a new Intel based laptop. The Macbook is what they called it. While it is damn impressive and ridiculously fast, I will wait for a 12” version to come out before I purchase it. 15” is too big to carry around everywhere. This is a new era for Apple, the tech field and my stocks.
So do I have a new year resolution? Not really. I have come to realize that I have never had a new year resolution. I guess I never really saw the point. Why would I need a new year to create a goal for myself? I've been pretty successful at accomplishing my goals and reaching where I have wanted to. I guess if I were to make a goal for 2006 it will be to find my niche in New York. My group of friends that always want to hang out and like doing the same things I like doing myself. That would be a good start I think. Take in as much of New York as I could before going onto my long journey to Italy, Greece, Taiwan, Japan, Morocco.
So lets sum up 2005. In that year I had a girlfriend, broke up, started dental school, bought a new guitar, flown more times that I would ever like to, met some cool people and not so cool people, moved to New York, got myself an apartment, took out my first two large loans and slept more than 8 hours. I would say overall 2005 was a success. Filled with some big events and some not so big but significant ones in between.
Happy New Year.
Right now I feel like I have been betrayed by pretty much everyone in my family and by the one person that I thought would never lie to me again. All of them were lying to me about something. Each and every single one of them about something. It is amazing how you think that since you are so far away that things will calm down and that there would not be any problems. I mean here I am, on the north eastern part of the country, on an island all on my own and nothing to do really but study. I’m not bothering anyone or saying anything to anybody. Just sitting here an enjoying myself, then drama after drama after drama. Then you find out the one person that you thought you could completely trust has done nothing but lie to you. I’m tired of it, no more. I’ve given enough chances and I’ve put my neck out on the line for nothing. I guess all that one person can really do is start over. All I have right now is time anyway. The stagnant four years of my life in the city that, in my opinion, doesn’t have much to offer in terms of variety.
New York, the city that never sleeps. Sure, if you drink and like to party. We all know that’s not me, and really, if you don’t want to do that, past 5 PM there really isn’t much to do here. Central Park you say? If I hear one person suggest Central Park I’m going to kill myself. Seriously, I’m going to be here four years, how many times are you going to go to a park? It is not that great, it is pretty much on par with anything in Texas except bigger and a lot more crowded. I don’t care about the size so much, it’s not like I’m going to traverse it, and the fact that it is crowded pretty much goes against the ideology of the idea of a park doesn’t it? Serenity and peace, quiet and relaxation... not in Central Park.
This is I guess the last post for 2005. Wow, wasn’t that quick? I can’t wait to get back to Texas and see everyone, even my family.
Life has been pretty good lately. Nothing overly exciting but just general hanging out and not doing much of anything really. I plan on going shopping tonight and buying myself a new a drill. Yes, I’m excited about a drill. I also finally got my second loan and now I can pay my rent and so that’s a load of stress that I do not have to worry about. Lately I’ve been kind of up and down. Some nights I feel down some I don’t. I think school might be getting to me. Anyway, I seem to be doing better in classes. Higher scores than when I started this semester. I’m at least passing now.
What an interesting turn of events for me. When I first moved here I was excited about having my own apartment and being on my own for a while. It has been about 3 months and I am already tired of it. I still want my own place, but I also want all my family to be around me. There is no way I would be able to move away from them and from my friends back home. No matter how well things get here, there really is no place like home.
Life is good. I can’t say much right now because not much has been going on really. Most of my days consist of attempts to study for the next exam. Most of the time I am just not interested and I end up distracting myself. What can I say, I just can’t seem to get myself to study constantly. The plan tomorrow is to study. The plan for the next week is to study. The plan is to... play guitar and record music as much as possible while studying for 2 minute intervals in between.
I don't think I'm going to specialize. I am just tired of this consistent studying. I never was an academic person. I can handle it, but it was never interesting to me. Why didn't I go into art or music? Even computers. Any of these fields would have been a joke for me, that's probably why. I love dentistry, but then again I love a lot of things. I just knew I would find this really hard and really frustrating. Everything else I'll have a lifetime to learn. Science is the one general subject that I know I would not sit down and teach myself. Hence why I got in it. I don't know if this is confusing or not, but basically since it is something that I couldn't teach myself I decided to go to school for it. All the other fields I can learn on my own and I would learn on my own. Meh... I've been studying for a very long time now. It is 10 PM and I have been non-stop school work since 9:00 AM.
I have an exam in two days. I need to study.
I went to bed at around 3 AM yesterday. Today I couldn’t wake up and missed my first two lectures, then after that I ran to school to catch my GDS lab. We had a quiz that I just couldn’t miss. I didn’t get much studying done and honestly never looked at the material. Somehow I managed a 100% on it. I am really happy with that, I am also done with my wax-ups through the rest of the month pretty much. I am happy with that as well. I just finished my canine wax up which we should’ve started sometime at the end of October. I love this class. Anything hands on I just know I will love. After GDS I had to go to Anatomy lab. The lab itself was good, I recognized most of the structures but the quiz I didn’t do too well on. I think I made maybe a 40 or a 60 on it. Not happy with that at all. I just can’t seem to get myself to understand anatomy. It is anatomy after all, and so you can’t understand much. Most of it is memorization and that is just not my thing. Never was, and apparently, never will be, no matter how much I study.
Right now it’s time to break my fast. I love food.
I know she’s not happy with me right now. I know she misses me and I miss her like crazy but I am also a little realistic. How am I supposed to concentrate on dental school and my life here if I’m still stuck back home. That will never happen.
Life is a series of events. One leads to the next and people move on. One of the biggest problems I see is that people think about the future too much. That really was never my style. So far I still can’t grasp the idea of always worrying about what will happen in the future. Instead of living in a world of risks, opportunities and ideas, we live in a system where the only real thing that matters is consequence. Consequences of what you’ll do and how they will affect your future. I can understand that in health, but not everything in life. Sometimes it is best to go and enjoy what is in front of you, right now, where you’re sitting, where you’re breathing at this exact moment in time.
It is 3:38 AM . I am tired and delirious probably. That is not going to stop me from enjoying some humus. Forget about how I feel tomorrow, I still want that humus.
For me time can’t pass fast enough right now. I am curious as to what the future holds and honestly I am in a state that I have never experiences. I care about school. I care about passing and I care about finally graduating and making my way back home to my family and my extended-family. Friends is a word of the past now, we are all family.
I have 44 quizzes, two practicals and two exams in one class. It is going to be interesting times for me, I actually have been studying. Weird. Just like my post.
Enough ranting about New York and the move now. I am tired. I need food and there is a slice of pizza in the refrigerator waiting on some CPR from me. I have seen a lot since I have been here. One event that caught my mind was the sight of a guy running around, screaming “f*** Bush.” He got on his knees in the middle of a group of almost 200 dental students and asked for a cigarette. No one paid him any attention, myself included. Then he screamed “why not, do you all support him? is it because I’m Arabic? Is it because I am Palistinian?” It really took a lot to my heart to see him like this. I just wanted to sit him down and buy him a meal. Ask, discuss, interview... whatever you may call it. What does it take to get a person to that point? To go insane? Obviously it has to do with politics, but what it is it? What happened? If I see him again, and if I have money, I will take him to lunch, buy him clothing and if I can, I will attempt to help him get back on his feet. Life is too short to ignore the problems around us and to not help out other human beings in general.
"The Wife" is right next to me, reading as I type. She makes me laugh sometimes and so angry other times. Oh well, I guess it's all part of being in a relationship. Either way I still can't wait till she moves up to New York with me, then that'd be great. We went and looked at furniture the past two days. She has horrible taste. She picks the weirdest things in the world. Mirrors that are absolutely useless and lights that provide no real lighting. Even when it's dark I think a candle would do better. Ah good times, this is why guys should never allow women to decorate. They get things that are absolutely not practical but look pretty. Guys on the other hand are the opposite, things can be ugly as long as they work. That's the real point anyway, to have things that work.
Soon I will be back in New York and paying so much money to go to school and to eat. The cost differences between here and there are amazing. Most people would flip out and some, the few that lived in New York, are not at all surprised. Oh well, time for me to go and do more shopping now. Find something that the family won't complain about. And the wife would like.
This past weekend was a lot of fun. I met a lot of people and enjoyed a lot of company. Now it is time to go back. Independence is beautiful. Having your own place and not having to worry about being anywhere or at any place. Things will change soon. School is going to start and that’s all I will be able to think about. It is amazing how fast life can change. One day I am at home with everyone, the next I am in a new world.
It is depressing here. It wouldn’t be so bad if I can just get up and go to Serene’s place. Life is too fast, too complicated and too selfish here. To each his own is a way of life here, not just a saying. I need my own place, I think that’s what makes this so hard. Once I have that then it is easy from then on. Just go, buy a bed, a desk, plates, silverware, setup electricity and internet access and get a gym membership. Not really that much if you think about it. The trick is finding a place to live first.
Work seemed like it is taking forever. Forever in the sense that forever will never end. I know... that's what the word is supposed to mean. Reality proves otherwise though, everything these days takes forever. A minute stoplight is an unbearable burden. A computer that is two seconds slower is outdated and a child who is 14 is living the terrible nightmare of not being 21. Time is too slow. I think our minds are just too fast. Everything has to be done and it has to be done instantly. Otherwise, catastrophe. It is the end of the world. Every task wasn't accomplished. The prime objective for today has not been reached. Life as we know it will cease. Now what's going to happen to that task. Gasp, it will be done... tomorrow. It is amazing how people rush to get things done all the time. I personally prefer a different method. Relax and do what you want. Slowly, calmly and joyfully.
Today I had a great time hanging out with Miranda. We did just that, relaxed. Nothing was rushed, no schedule, no time. Haven't looked at the clock once in fact. It was a beautiful thing and something that I'd like to do more often. I'm not completely impervious to the rush however. I want my baby back and I want her back now. I guess the only way to handle it though is to take it day by day. Soon I will be in Denver and then New York. I will be in the rush fever. Running from one place to the next to try to get settled in before school starts. Trying to get settled in time to come back to Dallas for one last visit before school starts. In time to come and see her one more time before the big move.
I can't wait... I can't wait to be done with the first year. I can't wait till she is up in New York with me and I can't wait till I wake up one morning and find her next to me. That will put a smile on my face.
I guess it is all part of nature anyway. Everything dies. It was cancer. She was an amazing woman. We can’t fight nature, it helped create us. All these new revelations in science and health to postpone what happens in nature. I guess the reality of it is that we are fighting and straying away from the one thing that truly has nurtured us. We are in a sense, becoming our own entity. Humans no longer abide by the rules of nature. Every disease has a way of being postponed further and further. Every treacherous road has way of being paved in brick and mortar. Still though, it seems no matter what we do, and no matter how much we think we will rise above nature, we lose. It is a reality and our fickle minds just cannot seem to accept it. Mine included.
I was shocked at the news. Last I remember, she was quite alive. Running from one end of our small refuge to the other without a second thought. What a grim day.
The doctor said he’d give him a few days to live
I’d give him more... if I could - Jack Johnson
So would I. In loving memory of Violy. You will be missed.
love: noun: an intense feeling of deep affection - oxford
What does oxford know about love? They’ve never seen us. I could be in the worst mood and depressed but then she will laugh. I mean truly laugh, like I have never seen before and my world would all of sudden be better. I think it’s more than an intense feeling. I think it’s a dependance, an expectation, a way of life. Simply, a feeling that is truly unique to every couple. The only feeling that is truly unique. Hate and jealousy are all the same. In the end people do the exact same thing when they feel hatred or jealous. Love though, makes you do crazy things. Things like leaving the person you are with just because you know they’d be happier otherwise. What is that? It is torturous. Two more months I keep telling myself, four two week periods or to make it even somehow seem a little better in my head, two four week periods and she’ll be back. I am not depressed nor am I crazy. I just miss my baby.
On another note the past few days have been a great time. I’ve been programming a lot. Or at least learning. I’ve gotten pretty far with what I want although some concepts I just can’t get my thoughts around them yet. Soon enough though, with enough practice I will be able to accomplish my goal.
For the few of you who were worried about me. I really am not depressed, I just feel like writing. These how my thoughts have been my whole life. Just take it with a grain of salt. Believe it or not, I am a lot deeper than I might put out to be. By the way, did you know that beach sand is actually fish crap? A specific kind of fish (that I can’t remember their name right now) that eats rocks. It deposits the non-edible food (rocks) as sand and the sand gets eventually washed up to the shore. So, next time you’re on the beach, have fun getting buried all the way to your neck.
On another note, I ask the question, what is a favor? When you ask someone for a favor, what do you expect? eMail me on this one and I will quote the answers that I receive next time I post.
Other than that, I have been very busy with school stuff for New York. As you might already know, I have received my rejection letter from Baylor, which is not a good thing of course but, I still am going to dental school in New York and that is good. Actually I really am looking forward to the move, in fact, I am very excited about it. New city, new apartment, new everything really. What’s gonna make it hard is the money. I just applied for my first student loan, $74,600. That is crazy, at least it includes living expenses though, I hope at least. I really hope I get the money earlier because I would like to use it to pay for the apartment rather than pulling out of my 401K and using that which I think I will be doing anyway. I got my shots today, that means I am one step closer to getting everything ready for dental school. I have to go two more times, because Hep-B requires three shots. At first I was afraid of getting my shots, after all, I haven't been to a doctor in 13 or 14 years, I really don't remember what shots even felt like. Once I got it done though it was a breeze. No worries there.
Breaking relations and creating new ties, this is life. This is how the world operates and it is the sad truth of growing. When you are young it takes seconds to make life long friends. When you are older it takes the length of your life to make a second friend. I am not going to see my girlfriend like I have been, like I am now accustomed to and I am tired of making friends. This is a tie that I do not want broken and would like to think that I am still young, hence made a life long friend in seconds.
Why is it sometimes that I always feel like I have to defend my place in people’s hearts? Especially my girlfriend? She gets hit on so much I feel like I have to compete or something to keep her with me, but it’s not like she’s a prize. She’s my girlfriend and she loves me. I am not so much questioning her, or people hitting on her for that matter. They would be crazy to not hit on her to begin with. She is smart, funny and absolutely stunning but that’s beyond the point. I think I am questioning society all together. Why is it that I know so many people who have been cheated on and so many people who have cheated? It makes me trust the world a lot less. Why do I worry so much about it? Media influence? No way, that’s not me, it has a lot to do with personal experience but it also has even more to do with experiences of friends and such. Everything that happens makes you think and the more you think the less you follow your heart. I hate thinking. Why is it that a single sip of wine could break me? Has my dislike for alcohol grown to a point where it is taking over me? I don’t know? Now I am thinking about it and in my mind trying to make it feel... alright. Well, this is one point I will stop thinking about as of now. My heart has always told me I hate alcohol and drinking, the party scene, the cool crowd and the mentality that if you’re not drinking and dressing like me you are not cool.
Maybe I am the black sheep in a herd of 300 million white ones but why is it that anything that compromises good morals and values I find completely horrendous? Not bad or distasteful... but horrendous. I am afraid of lack of morals. Is it the way I was brought up? My brothers are a lot more open minded than I am. Generally I don’t care what people do as long as it doesn’t affect others. But for people who I love and care about, it doesn’t matter, all I can do sometimes is worry. Even if they have no intention of doing anything I always place them in scenes in my mind where they are acting just plain stupid. Stupid by my definition of course. I guess maybe it has to do with me having hope that I am not the only person in the world who values honesty in a way like I have never seen anyone value it. I always feel like I am the only person who sees things the way I do. Sometimes extreme I admit, but that is the way I am. My imagination runs crazy and I just can’t stop it. It would be against my nature to even try to stop it. I just wish sometimes that there would be a person who understands exactly the way I feel, not because I explained it but because they feel exactly the same way I do. Not about everything, but about the things that I would consider important... things that they too would consider important.
I warned you that I was in an odd state.
But seriously folks, these past couple of weeks have really been amazing. It was my girlfriend's birthday and man it couldn't have gone any better. She loved her present, it was an engraved iPod mini. We went to the movies and stuff and it just was a good time in general. Other than that I have just been going to work and stuff. I have been much happier lately. Just generally happier and I can pretty much account all of it to my baby. I have lately been looking a lot at a Yamaha S08 keyboard. This thing is just awesome. It comes with an excellent sound bank, specifically the piano and the upright bass. Those are really the only two that I use MIDI with. Oh and drums too, but I am only concerned about those two because they use up a lot of computer power. My laptop is great, but not that great. I wish I had a PowerMac G5 to run all this stuff on. It is a much better system for audio stuff.
I have also been looking at a Toyota MR2 Spyder and an Infiniti G35. I cannot decide between either one of them really. The Infinity is much more luxurious but the MR2 is a much nicer ride. The MR2 is also a lot cheaper than the Infiniti but what it has against it is that it is slow, very slow and also there is absolutely no trunk space. Oh well, I will be happy with either decision. Either way I will not be getting a car till I find out what is going on with the Baylor program. I really hope I get accepted into this program. Not because NYU is bad, because it is a great school actually, but because I want to stay here in Dallas. It is much cheaper here for one, about 230 thousand dollars cheaper plus I get to stay with my family and friends. Baylor is, in my opinion, the best dental school in the US and personally I don't want to settle for less. Anyone who is reading this right now, please take a moment to pray for me. I find out what's going on with me on April 27th. Hopefully sooner.
What else, oh yeah, Jana came and visited me today. I haven't seen her in a very long time. It was so good to see her and catch up on old times. I was really hoping that she would get stay a bit longer so that she can meet all my friends and my grilfriend and stuff. Oh well.
Well I think I have said enough today.
Outside of that, everything is going great with my baby. Her birthday is coming up soon and I am really excited about it. So what else is new? Nothing really, just been going to work then hanging out. Going to work, hanging and so forth. I might be getting a new car soon, I am very excited about that.
Nothing really, I have been working at my dad's place and my credit card balance just keeps on going up and up. I really need to get a paying job sometime soon. I am so excited, this month is my cousin's birthday and my baby's birthday. Two of my favourite people. Mazen already knows what he's getting, baby on the other hand doesn't, she has no idea what I'm doing for her but I'm excited about it. I took a quiz recently... well it was a psychology project my girl had to do, but basically it was about pictures that we had taken, she printed them out and asked me questions about them. What was she wearing? What did the clock say? that type of stuff. I got all of them except for one right. Man that was great.
What else what else? Hmm, well nothing really, just been going out with her and really having a great time.
Happy birthday Sharon and Parastoo.
The past two weeks have just been awesome. Really I've enjoyed every day immensly. Everything really has just been great and I've been having so much fun. Nothing new outside of having my graduation party and making a hell of a lot of money that day. Something like 1700 dollars, thanks everyone for the great gifts I really liked all of them. Some news about Naomi (my guitar). Yesterday I was getting very irritated because whenever I would hit the open A string, the microphone would buzz. I ended up taking it to Guitar Center to get it checked and see if they can fix it. Turns out my headphones were the problem and nothing really was going on with the guitar at all. I was so happy, that guitar cost me 1500.00 dollars on its own, not to mention the case and the tuner and everything else I got with it. I was very angry when I thought it was buzzing, something that expensive should not be at all buzzing.
That's all really. Not a very interesting post even though the past two weeks have been great. To my baby, vous êtes très mignonne.
UPDATE: Despite having a horrible day at work, this was the best valentines day I have ever had. merci tellement mon chéri.
So, what's changed since last time I posted. Nothing much really, my graduation party was just awesome and everyone had a great time. As usual my dad threw the best party most people have seen. I made a lot of money and I am about to go to the bank to deposit it and send it to my credit card company. This is very good news, I really like paying things off and I am very close to getting all my debt paid off. I still need to fill out my FAFSA work though, so I can go in more debt with dental school, somewhere in the range of 350 thousand dollars. Ah good times! My brother Firas moved out recently, he bought himself a house and I am very proud of him. He is doing very well for himself and I couldn't be happier for him. I feel like I am just listing what has happened recently and I probably am, then again I just woke up 10 minutes ago so I'm not all here.
It is freezing and it is supposed to get even colder, maybe snow so I'm going to get going and make my deposit to the bank. Bye!
Now, back to it being a great month. Well, I have just been going out, having fun, but more importantly I have returned Tess and exchanged her with a new guitar, this one I call Naomi. She is just gorgeous. Perfectly built, with a very nice warm sound. She is very loud and unlike Tess, she sounds good when recording. The biggest problem I've had with Tess (Cordoba CWE-S) was the pickup. It was a B-Band pickup and it was horrible. First of all, there's no real microphone in it, meaning that all the noise the hand made just did not make a single sound. For any classical guitarist out there, you know how fake it sounds when you don't have finger noise. Also, it was horrible at picking up dynamics of the guitar, if I played loud or softly, it barely could tell the difference. I certainly was not a fan of that lack of sensitivity. Mostly, what I hated about the guitar was that when plugged into an amp it didn't sound half bad, but when plugged into recording equipment, the noise is louder than anything else and it is very prevelant. I have many people who can attest to the difference. Naomi (Jose Ramirez 2CWE) is probably the best guitar I have ever played. It sounds better than other guitars that are twice it's price. It also features a Fishman Pro-Blend pickup, probably the best pickup in my opinion. When plugged into either amp or recording equipment, it just sounds awesome. No noise at all, simply nice warm tone. If I want it to sound a bit like an electric I can turn the pickup to use the transducer against the strings, if I want it to sound more natural like a classic guitar, I just turn it to use the condenser microphone that's built in it. So it has two points of pickup and you can blend as much of each as you want. So for example, 80% mic, 20% pickup. That sort of deal. With a good cable, Monster in my case, you can achieve really clean results. The sample you might've just heard was done with no effects or editing at all, with the exception of adding reverb to each track. Pretty damn amazing if you ask me. Outside of the pickup, the guitar itself has been built without a single disregard for detail. It is just beautiful. Best craftsmanship I have seen yet. Everything on it is just right. Now here comes the bad part, when changing one of the strings I had popped it and it went into the finish, and so now I have a quarter inch scratch on there. I am not a fan of the scratch at all and it has been bothering the hell out of me. Oh well, win some lose some I guess.
Moving on, life really has just been good, I've been very relaxed. I have been relaxed since the day I found out I got accepted to dental school really. Now I just have to find a place to live and I have to do my loans, outside of that I'm really free as a bird.
As an update to my dental school status by the way, I did not get accepted into any of the schools here in Texas. I am second listed at the moment and still hoping to get into Baylor because it is right here in Dallas. Not even 20 minutes from my house without traffic. It would be many magnitudes cheaper for me to go to Baylor than any other school. On average, I'm looking to get out of Baylor being only $120,000 in debt as compared to NYU where I will be leaving with something in the range of $350,000. It is not even a question of how I would like the schools, both are very impressive and I can easily see my self attending and enjoying both. When it comes down to my future though, it is easy to see that it would be a lot more beneficial for me to go to Baylor, just on saving money.
One thing I forgot to mention, I graduated Cum Laude from UTD, meaning honors. Something I am very proud of.
Now back to other things, I really don't have much more to add. It is two in the morning right now and my thoughts are all over the place. Oh wait, one more thing, I've written maybe four different songs in one week. I don't know why but they just kept on coming. Okay, enough for now! Really my thoughts are all over the place.
I've written some new music, I am really excited about it. When am I not though? Anyway, soon I will finish recording it and I will add it to my site in the music section. I'm almost done with this coming semester. It looks like December is going to be a very busy month for me. On the first of December I will be finding out if I get accepted into dental school or not. Hopefully I made it in. Then on the fifth of December I will be going to New York because on the 6th I have an interview with NYU. I will be back on the 7th. On the 8th I will be having lunch with Dr Rippel and all the other TA's. He takes his TA's out to lunch every semester and it's just awesome of him. Once that's done, I have my graduation on the 11th, I will be graduating with honors, which is nice. I'm really excited about that actually, and in fact, I am even going to go to the ceremony. I skipped high school graduation, it didn't really feel like an accomplishment. After that is Christmas break, so I will be able to relax for a while and then New Years, which means I get to start a new Journal page and this one goes to the archives. I can't believe it's already been a year, this year just flew by.
I've had several people ask me before, why do I have an online journal? To put it simply, it's been my goal through life to document my thoughts and my feelings so that my kids or anyone who's interested for that matter can somehow understand my life story. Of course, this journal is not all I have, but if you combine my music, my paintings, my journal among other things I think it is possible to figure out how I was feeling at a certain period in time. Every detail won't be clear, but just so that people can get a general feeling of me.
On the other hand, Logic Express came in, the improvements in it are great and I for one am very glad of the changes. My brother also bought a PowerMac G5 and Logic Pro. Both of which are just completely amazing in their own field. Logic Pro has got to be the most complete and best music software I have used to date. I am waiting on a couple more updates though before I get my copy of it. I can only imagine what Apple will do to Logic Pro in the next couple of releases. Hopefully they will do to it what they did with Final Cut Pro, if they can even come close to reaching the calibur of Final Cut Pro then they will simply blow everyone's mind away.
On the fifth of December I will be flying up to New York for a dental school interview. By then I should know whether I have been accepted into the dental schools here in Texas or not. Hopefully I have, they are much cheaper over here and some of the best schools in the United States. Right now this is all I will add to my journal.
I'm at work right now waiting on customers. I get really bored up here and so I always bring my laptop with me to work on some projects. I have a board meeting to attend at school today and then I'm pretty much off for the rest of the week. It is mid terms this week and since I have to be at work today, Dr Rippel said that I can't administer the practical to the students in my section tomorrow morning. Basically he wants someone who can make it to all three sections and I don't blame him. It is the only way to have fair grading across the board. I am excited that I get the day off tomorrow and saturday. I don't know what I'm gonna do, but I'll definitely sleep.
Life is still good
I stayed over at Angela's place and that was interesting. I think she felt a little awkward that I was there which is understandable. For those of you who don't know our story, Angela and I were an item for almost four years. It was very good to see her though, it has been such a long time, almost four years since we last spoke.
Other than that not much has been going on, all that are really on mind are the dental school interviews right now. I am at least one step away from being accepted.
Outside of that nothing much has happened, honestly all I can think about are the interviews right now, so I can either end here or write a few pages about them. I think I'll end here.
Outside of dental school, I did manage to make all A's in the summer, which is nice. I am very happy with the way that went. Obviously. That's really about it for me and school right now. My brother and my friends Paras and Farbad are all taking the MCAT this saturday. Good luck to them all, I hope they do very well on it.
There are many things going on in my life right now that I will not post about, and I have many paintings stuck in my head that I need to begin churning out. I've also been working on some new music, I'm excited about that as well. I'm using an electric guitar now that Paris had let me borrow. It's a different texture all together for me and I'm really enjoying experimenting with it. Still though, nothing touches acoustic classical guitars. I'm still wanting to buy a drum set, piano, violing and a new guitar for myself. I'd like to get a classical acoustic/electric so that I can record music without worrying about outside noise. That's a technicality though, I found two that I liked, both above 1500.00 dollars.
Enough for now.
Outside of that I haven't really done much. Just hanging out with my friends and all that good stuff. Tonight we're meeting at Fuddruckers (I don't know if that's spelled right) and then we'll go out and do something afterwards. It'll all be fun. Friday I'll be going to the DMA because they are open late and they are having a jazz band playing. That's going to be a lot of fun. Also this Sunday my brother is going to Shakespeare in the Park and I might go with him. Just gotta find a date first.
More than anything, I am excited about my mom and my little brother coming home this weekend. I can't wait till they get back, I miss both of them so much. The house is real quiet without the both of them.
That's really about it.
Just kidding. I have been crazy busy the past few weeks, my family being out of town and all. I've still been having a great time though, last week was a party over at Savera's place, that was a ton of fun and the homies and I have been hanging like the usual. I have one more week of school left, I'm really excited about that. I am looking forward to being done with classes, of course I will be starting classes yet again a week later. Still, next semester I think will be a lot of fun actually. The classes that I am going to be taking are ones that I will enjoy. Since all I have left to graduate now are electives I just got to pick my classes and I picked something completely out of my field. I figure since I plan on attending dental school I might as well take something else that I have an interest in becasue I don't know if I'll ever get the chance later on.
My dad came back to town yesterday. I'm so glad he did, I missed him a lot and I miss my mom and my little brother as well. I can't wait till they get back into town. Outside of that I don't think much has been happening really. I mean, it's all about school lately. I still have to write a five page paper, no problem, and I have to prepare for my presentation, I also have to finish a chapter's worth of homework in my creating music class and finish a portrait in my painting class. Outside of that I don't have that much to do, just make sure everything is going well with my applications for dental school as well as register for physics class and pay tuition. Ah, how the good times come rolling.
Have a great July!
There isn't going to be much happening tonight. Just a few friends and I are going to watch the fireworks and then go back to Grego's place and just hang out for a little bit. Nothing overly exciting. What is exciting though is that I am going to be buying a drum set. Yep yep, I can't wait. I'm about to jump in the shower right now and then go to Guitar Center and see what type of deal I can get. I can't wait to get one, I've been wanting to play drums for so long. They are advantageous in two ways, one I get to improve my rhythm and second, they will help as far as my coordination goes so that my dexterity for dentistry is improved even further.
I'm still continuing on working on my album, although I haven't recorded anything new in a while, I have just been way too busy. Either way, I just found out that there are scholarships and such that I can get that will allow me to go to a recording studio for free and record a song or maybe even a full album. That would be great to do, a definite eye opening experience.
On another note, last week I went out with some of the first year dental students at Baylor College of Dentistry, where my cousin goes. We got to know each other very well and now I am more excited than ever to begin dental school. I know how much work is involved in it and that I will be very busy but somehow, I am looking forward to that. I guess my dad's saying is true, the older you get the more you want to learn.
Hope everyone has a great 4th, I know I will be enjoying it.ß
Outside of that nothing much has been going on. The pool is almost entirely clean. I'm so glad, I can't wait for it to be done. You can now see the bottom of the pool, something that hasn't been possible for at least a year. Now that we have a new filter though it's getting much better. I've been working on it everyday to get it in tip top shape and it's paying off. Two more days and the pool will be swimmable in. BBQ anyone?
I've written four new songs in the past month. I'm on a roll I guess. I'm still learning more and more everyday about Logic and how to use it. It really is quite powerful, but the interface on it is really hard to learn. I hope now that Apple owns the company that they have a RADICAL change in the interface aspect of it and some under the hood (not much) tweaks here and there. If it had something like SoundTrack's interface it would be excellent. Much easier to use but still has all the power. It's easily feasible. OK, enough of my ranting about this.
Have a good summer!
Outside of that, nothing much has changed. We got a new pool filter so hopefully the pool will be much cleaner soon. I give it a week and I think that it will be swimmable. This is very good news, I've been wanting to swim for so long.
That's all folks!
Other than that, I am sunburnt because of Oozeball (mud volleyball). It is an event that we hold at school. I had a real good time there, but the funny thing is that mud splattered on my face and basically, those areas did not get sun burnt at all. Now I have a red face, with white dots everywhere. It's very funny looking.
We also got a new pool filter here at home, hopefully this one will work and I can finally get the pool clean. The one that we had is about 30 years old and it's time that it gets replaced. This new filter will arrive the 29th of April and I for one am really excited about having it installed.
My birhtday is coming up soon, the 22nd actually, and I'll be turning 22. Serene's birhtday is coming up too, on the 19th, so... happy birthday Serene.
Well, that's really about it.
Yesterday I spent the whole day trying to fix my uncle's PC. The thing is brand new and cost a ton of money and it's already gone bad. Something's wrong with the hardware, he's going to have to send it in to get it fixed. Towards the end of the night, my uncle decided we should go and pick up a laptop for him, but that never happened. It's a long story.
Other than that, I have just been real busy with school and will continue to do so for the next two weeks at least. I have to finish my 15 page paper that's due for Seminal Papers and I also have two quizzes that are coming up. I am really worried about these quizzes actually. In fact, I'm worried about Immuniobioligy this semester and Seminal Papers. The other classes I think I will do fine it. Guitar is a blast and I'm getting better at music reading. Piano is a blast as well, and I'm getting better at reading music for that as well. I wish I had a keyboard at home to practice on. A real keyboard not like the one that I have now which, is 14 years old and only has 3.5 octaves. I would like to get an 88 piano weighted key keyboard. Then I can really get some real practice going on.
That's all foks!
I have since last time recorded several songs, most just a quick recording so that if I ever forget them I can have something to remind me of how they go. I have also re-recorded Sweetest Rose and it sounds much better now. I had set up a poll, some people don't like it, some do... no problem. It's not really everyone's style of music. I can certainly understand why some people don't like it. Anyway, so far there are only three votes, 2 like it and 1 doesn't. No one loves it and no one hates it.
Outside of that, not much has really happened. Just school school school.
Outside of that, I have returned the OmniStudio USB recording interface for the original FW410 that I had bought before. It works much better than the OmniStudio. The reason I returned it originally is because it wasn't working with GarageBand. Now, however, since I am not using GarageBand anymore, I'll just stick with FW410.
Yesterday I went to Greg's place and came up with tunes for a new song on the guitar. It sounds very much like a 50's or 60's song. Super oldie, but it can be fun, and it will be fun. Either way, I enjoy it.
Right now I'm working on my 15 page advanced writing paper that is due at the end of the semester. I figure I'll get it done before spring break, that way I can get started on studying for the DAT during spring break and concentrate on that. Last time I took it I did OK on it, but I would much rather do better. If I can get two points more on it, then I'll be set with the DAT. After that it's applying and interviewing. Hopefully I will be accepted.
Outside of that, I'm doing a little spring cleaning I guess, I'm selling all of my photography equipment as well as some software that I've had for a while. It just is sitting here collecting dust, even my digital camera is of little use now. I just don't have time to pursue music, oil painting, photography, school and work right now. Since I do less photography than anything else, I've decided to give it up for right now. I will get back to it, but not now, besides, I really don't think I have a need for 4 cameras anyway. That's a little much for a hobbyist.
I figure that I will get a pretty good amount of money for all this equipment in which case I will buy new software which will hopefully work better than GarageBand on my laptop. If that works, then I don't have to opt out for a new machine. I think it's kind of crazy that a computer that was top of the line less than 6 months ago is now outdated. I love my laptop, no reason to replace it... not unless Apple comes out with G5 laptops, then we have a totally different story... ;)
Man, this is a nerdy post, all about computers and software and some schooling. Oh well, it's the stuff that's on my mind right now.
So lets see, what else is new? I guess nothing really, just been hanging out and working on school and stuff. I feel like I might finally be learning how to read music. I'm glad I'm taking these classes, but sometimes the differences between Piano class and Guitar class can throw you off, the two of them confuse me somtimes, but it's something that I have to learn to work through, especially considering that I plan on learning at least 12 instruments by then end of my life.
That's all folks!
The good stuff, I bought some recording equipment finally. I got headphones, a mic/midi interface for the computer and a microphone as well. Right now I'm waiting on software, it should get here next Friday. Once I have the software, I'll be set to record, everything is top quality except for the mic. That will be my limitation as far as sound quality goes, and it is going to be a huge limitation untill I get a new one.
If you notice, the year 2003 is gone, but don't worry, it's still on the site, just click on the Archives section above and you should find it. I always wonder how long I am I going to be able to keep this journal up. It's not daily, and it's very loose in structure, but it is my life. Ah well, no need to worry about that now I guess.
Back to the music. Monday I start Piano classes at UTD, as well as the rest of my classes but I'm more interested in the Piano part right now. My brother left his keyboard in my room the other day, and for the first time I sat down and played it. Within 10 minutes I figured out how to play ColdPlay's "The Scientist." I was so excited, still am actually. I'm considering getting a MIDI keyboard for myself, one that doesn't make sound unless it's played through some other instrument. Now you might think that this move might be stupid, but I think it would be a pretty good one, what that means is that I'm not limited by the sounds strictly on my keyboard, as long as they make new sounds, I can just play those, so I can play a ton of instruments on one keyboard. Don't worry if you don't understant what I'm getting at, it might just be easier to show you.
I am going to re-record all the music in my music section as well as add some band covers that I like to do. It will take me a while to get everything sounding well, so don't expect anything soon. Oh and I will be redesigning this site so that it would work with older browsers better. I don't think it will look any different to any browser that's up to date though.
Have an awesome year!
This past week has been pretty good, not much going on, just hanging out with the girls and the homies. There really hasn't been much to do because everything is closed around christmas time, but it's OK, it's still fun. I'm now working on a new website for the UTD Alumni. Theirs is super duper ugly right now, hopefully I'll be able to come up with something that'll impress the board of directors and also be easy to maintain. That's the goal at least, honestly, the way the site is right now, anything is better, it's the least organized site I've ever been on. It's kind of ironic as well that an organization would have such an unorganized site.
Outside of that not much is going on, plans for new years are ready and hopefully it'll be fun. We're going to West Village, which I don't think I've ever been to, or maybe I have, I don't know, anyway, after that no idea what we're doing. I keep on trying to remember what I did last new years, but I can't, maybe I'll check back on my journal and figure it out.
Happy Hollidays to everyone and be safe!
Outside of work, I start school tomorrow. So much for a break, school is already starting for me again. Oh well, not like the break has been that great anyway. All the friends have been canceling to do things, plus the homies don't go to the same school that I do, so they had finals all of last week. Oh well, I guess I'll hang after and before class. Since there was nothing to do during the break, what I ended up doing was updating my music page, this time with my own music and completely changed the layout. I never liked the way I had it before, it always struck me as ugly and confusing. I recorded my music on my laptop using a program not designed to do music at all. It was also all done in one take and through the built in microphone on the laptop. So if you think the quality sounds bad, well... now you know why. Anyway, that's all for now. Told you it was a boring break!
Enough ranting about school, now to the important things. Lets see, where to start first. OK, my friend Nasreen was getting sick and she tested out positive for tuberculosis (TB). What this means is that she's going to have to be on medication for the next nine months at least, which is no fun. It really isn't that bad though, it's only one time a day, and once you get in the habit your really won't even notice that you're doing it. I guess it'll be like brushing your teeth. Since she was sick, and could infect people, that means that all her friends have to be tested. So if you haven't guessed, that means me as well. Anyway, the testing really wasn't that bad, I went with Savera and Paristou, and they made fun of me like usual, but it was all good times. We all came out negative, of course we couldn't tell Nasreen that quite yet. We told her Paris came out positive, but she didn't believe us. Oh well, Curtis (Platypus) believed me when I told him I was positive. I thought it was funny. Anyway, so since Nasreen was infectious, she was quarantined at her home, no one could visit her or anything. That must have really been boring. Anyway, today was the day that she was no longer contagious, so she actually got to go out. Congratulations Nasreen.
As far as this last weekend went, well, I went and got tested with the girls and then after that we went to visit Nasreen. Now we didn't go in the house, we just sat outside in the lawn and talked to her through the window. That was funny. Anyway, after that we went to Best Buy and then Guitar Center, my second home. After that, I went to eat with my cosine at Chilis and then went back to her place and just hung out for a while. Saturday, we had a few people over at her place and hung out for the night. By the end of the night though I was feeling pretty bad. My chest was killing me. Anyway, the next day I woke up and I was so sick. I was delirious, dizzy all day and could barely stand. I was coughing so hard and just couldn't really control anything. I had attained the flu, and I got it from my dear mom. I have never felt so sick in my life, it really was worse than anything I remember ever feeling. Good times. I slept maybe 20 hours that day. I was planning to spend all of Sunday studying for exams, and so far, I've barely studied a word, and today is Tuesday. I can't help it, the past two days I just couldn't concentrate on anything, not even music. I didn't play much guitar, I didn't think about any paintings I'd like to paint... nothing. It's a horrible feeling. No inspiration.
Come Monday I feel a little better, no great improvement though. Well, I had to go to the TB clinic so they can check my results because I either had the flue, or possibly TB. Anyway, me and Paris decided to go so I met her at her work after class and then we head on out there, we walk in, and two minutes later, we walked out. I could've just as easily called the clinic and told them what the thing looks like. Oh well, at least they were cool people, unlike most clinics I deal with where they're just too full of themselves to be more human. I don't think most doctors realize the importance of that in their field.
OK, I think I've written enough. I probably could have shortened all of this, but like I said, it really did feel like a lot has happened in the past few weeks. Enjoy!
Yesterday we hung out over at Grego's place. It was a blast, a few people were there and we had the music, hookah, pool table, black jack table and bunch of folk. Left there kind of late actually, then Mazen, Santosh and I went to IHOP and had a little something to eat. Everyone was in a good mood and everything was funny, there were new and old people, it was great.
On another note, Ramadan started about a couple of weeks ago, so I've been fasting all day. That means no food or water at all. As you can imagine, usually by the end of the day I'm extremely tired. Plus, I have already started losing weight, which isn't good considering I'm already very skinny.
Not much more to talk about really. Enjoy!
Halloween is coming, I have no idea what I'm going to do for Halloween, but honestly, I really don't care right now. I'll probably just go and hang out at some one's house or something if I do anything at all. It might be a better idea for me to just stay home and study for my exams, but I doubt that's going to happen.
I've made some updates to the site, a new link at the bottom takes you to some of my poetry. I also changed one of the sites in my portfolio to OS X World, which is a much more active site.
As far as what I've done since I last posted, well, it really is nothing more than just studying and hanging out with friends and such. Not a big deal and not much to talk about so I'm going to skip the details. The only thing that I'm excited about right now is the Baylor Summer Enrichment Program. Basically it's a program that is supposed to give you insight and hands on experience with dentistry, which I'm very excited about, plus, it also increases my chances of being accepted to dental school.
I learned to play a few more songs on the guitar lately as well, all by ear. It's really odd, I'm finally starting to pick up music by ear and I'm real happy about that. It used to be where someone would have to teach it to me. Anyway, I learned Green Eyes and The Scientist by Coldplay and I also learned to play Unchained Melody (the song from the movie Ghost). I also picked up four Radiohead songs. The way I see it, the more the merrier when it comes to learning music. Later!
So this weekend, after Saturday's move I came home and met up with Nasreen and Paristou, then we went to Savera's place. That was fun, but I was so beat that I just kinda sat there like a lazy ass (Nasreen). Then Sunday I studied the whole day and then went over to Serene's place and hung out that night. That's really about it. Outside of that, it's been all about school which has kept me very busy.
Oh, and hopefully there'll be an update to the pictures page soon, I'm going to try to get pictures of all the homies so I can put them up on here.
This shout out goes to my friend Jerry because he's having a rough week. Peace out homie.
The weather is awesome today, so I have the top down, I think I'll be going to Serene's place tonight to hang out. That'll be fun. OK, so now the updates I guess...
Well, yesterday was my last day at work. Right now I am jobless, which is nice, I don't have to be anywhere other than school. It's real weird though. I'm going to sell my play stock acocunt and pay off my credit card so that I don't have to worry about it. I should also have enough to get another drum set, but this time I'm going to leave it at Grego's place.
Last weekend was Curtis' birthday. I took him to The Melting Pot, there were about 10 of us I think, and we had a blast. Then we went to Grego's place, played pool and just hung out for the rest of the night. That was awesome. It was also Paristou's birthday, so Sunday I went out to eat with her, Savera and Nasreen, that was a good time as well.
I learned some new music as well, I learned three Radiohead songs and yesterday I learned to play Stair Way to Heaven. I don't know how I learned it either, I came back home from Greg's place and I was feeling a little down, so I just grabbed the guitar and started messing around. Anyway, I just started figuring the song out and I've only heard it maybe 10 times in my life. I was kinda happy that I picked it up though, it means that I'm progressing a little as a guitar player.
That's all I can think of right now.
So it's been a while since I last posted, well, lets start since the last time I posted. August 30th doesn't really ring a bell but I believe it was memorial day weekend or labor day or something like that. Anyway, I went and hung out over at Nasreen's place with Curtis, Savera and Paris. Anyway, it was a lot of fun, we saw The Secret Lives of Dentists. A really good movie. Since then I bought a few DVD's myself, I bought Rushmore, Phenomenon, and Requiem of a Dream. I haven't seen Requiem yet, but I plan on it.
Ok, the weekend after that we had a little get together over at Serene's new place, that was fun as well. Played guitar, smoked the hookah, you know, the good stuff... There really hasn't been much outside of that. Yesterday I went over to Greg's place and then we went to eat at Bennigan's. Also, a few days ago I went to Guitar Center with Nasreen and I played a drum set they had there, that was so awesome. I have to get one again.
I have an exam on Tuesday, and today's Saturday and I haven't studied a word for it yet. I'm just not in the mood. It's really probably one of the most boring classes I've ever taken in my life. Not interesting at all. It's all just biochemical pathways and such, completely puts me to sleep. Oh well, I just have to do well this semester, because after this, things should be much easier for me. Most of my classes will be electives, and I plan on taking Guitar class. I can't wait for that. Peace out.
Outside of that, I had my Student Ambassador Retreat last week. It was a lot of fun. I had a blast, everone was nice and in a good mood, which is always a plus. I'm looking forward to working the rest of the year with this team, I think it's going to be good times.
I updated my Music page to have a different look on it, plus I added Coldplay to my list of artists, they really should have been on there a long time ago. Oh well, not a big deal. I have a meeting tonight at school for Legacy Lane, which is a school related issue. I won't bog you with details. Outside of that, I have no plans at all. It's kinda nice actually. Anyway, that's all folks.
On another note, today I went to Dr. Grave's office to do observations and such, it was a lot of fun. I saw two or three procedures and then stayed up front for the rest of the time. Everyone there is real nice, which is a good thing to have for the office. Wonderful.
I've written a new song, or actually two new songs, they're pretty good. So far everyone's liked them, which is good, but I haven't played them for either Curtis or Greg, which I need to do. I've also been in the mood to paint something lately, so I'm going to go buy a canvas and get on top of that. I haven't painted, or felt inspired to paint, in years. It feels good to want to put something on canvas.
I went shopping with Serene last week. It was awesome, bought a bunch of new shirts that I really needed. A few weeks ago I grabbed a trash bag and threw away all the clothes that I don't wear anymore, or that are torn or something's wrong with them. Anyway, by the time I was done, I was left with two pairs of jeans, one pair of khakis and two shirts. Great. I figure it is time to go shopping. I'm going to buy some more stuff as well, I need more pants definitely. That's all folks!
Since then I've also started my history class, and finished it. I made an A on it, I also made an A on my Government class that I've takend. Glad to get those out of the way, I still have Government II and History II to take. Right now I started my graphic design class, it's going to be so easy. We're learning Photoshop, and I'm pretty good at it. That should be a fun class, the computers there are awesome PowerMac G4's with 17" Cinema displays, which I'd love to get my hands on. Speaking of computers, I also ordered a new laptop for myself. A PowerBook G4, 12". It's an awesome laptop. I'm going to give my brother my beloved PowerMac G4 and use the laptop as my only computer. This is going to give me a much larger desk space, plus it's portable so I can use it with clients and such. I'll have his 17" monitor to hook up to it when I'm at home. I also bought an iSight with it so I can video chat with friends over the net. It works very well, although since the software is in beta stages it still has some bugs in it.
That should bring you up to speed, other than that, there really isn't much to talk about. I haven't been doing anything out of the ordinary really, work, school and music.
Now to the good news, I shaved my head finally. It got pretty long nearing the DAT, I didnt bother doing anything because that test was the most important thing to me. Since then, Ive started my Government class, which so far, I have a 99.5 average in it. How awesome is that. My instructor is great, she makes government very interesting, as it should be, something dynamic that changes all the time. Other government classes Ive taken make it sound like everythings set in stone and nothing every changes, how can that be interesting?
Ive also written two or three more songs, and I like them, more than any other songs Ive written. Not only that, they seem to carry a much bigger audience than my other songs, simply because, theyre catchy. I dont know if Ill do more like them though, not my style of music, but its interesting still to see how people react to different styles of music. With my style, I have a very limited audience, but they would be a very faithful audience, something that counts for a lot with me, and more important than any number can be.
Im going to Chicago in June, I cant wait. Im going to visit Jana, were going to have tons of fun. There are three art museums, which I would like to go to all three, but I dont think well be able to do that. Were going to go to the Melting Pot restaurant, our favorite place, or mine at least. Then, were going to go shopping down town, that will be a lot of fun. I cant wait to do that, it will be a relaxing time from school and work, Ill just hang out, no driving, no web design, no programming, no anything, just hanging out with a person that I love to hang out with.
On another note, I am now 21 and feel no different. I didn't drink, despite attempts by friends to try to get me to drink, although to my pleasant surprise, they really didn't try to push me too hard to drink. In fact, the waitress where we went to eat was trying harder than they did, shows how well they knew me. That's good freindship when they can respect my values as such and not try to pressure me. I had a good birthday, it came right before finals week, so I didn't do much. Never do though. Anyway, got some cool gifts. Jana sent me jeans that fit perfectly and a gift card to the Apple store for 150.00. Wow, I was astonished at that. Anyway, I'll be flying there sometime in June, I think the 12th was the date that we set for me to go there, so I need to make sure I get them off from work. On May 11th I plan on taking the DAT. The real thing. I can't wait to be done with that. It's so much pressure with this being the biggest exam of my life. Anyway, I have my Biochem exam and my Biostats exam on Tuesday. Then on Wednesday I have no exams, but we're working on our Bio Lab final presentation. Anyway, on Friday I have my Genetics exam, then I have to present our Bio Lab presentation, after that, I'm all done except for the DAT. This will give me a good week to study for it. I should be able to do well on it. I really need to study only two sections, sciences and mathematics. The others I'll do well on, I'm not really worried about them. Anyway, should be fun. After that, I have Maymester, and then Summer school, plus research in sickle cell anemia. I'll be busy, but much less stressed considering that I'll be done with the DAT.
My birthday is next week, on the 22nd, I'll be turning 21. My friends are going to try to get me drunk. Little do they know that they have a real challenge on their hands, since I don't drink and all. It's going to be funny though. They keep on asking me what I want for my birthday, and I don't really want anything, I just want to get into dental school. That's all I'm looking for right now, and that's my biggest goal and that's what's most important to me.
Jana moved to Chicago about two weeks ago. She's liking it up there. I wasn't really happy about that since that means I can't see her anymore. We talk every day at least once, but it's weird because we're now broken up. For the best I guess, at least we broke up without hating each other. Hopefully, I'm going to go to Chicago and visit her in May, by then I'll be done with the DAT and my finals for classes. I'm taking the DAT April 28th and school finishes May 5th. A lot of stress is going to fall off once I'm done with this semester. It's one of my hardest semester, plus add the DAT to that, and you got yourself a can full of stress. Anyway, back to Jana, I sold my laptop to her. She's liking it. I'm also very close to paying off the credit card, which means I can start saving up towards another laptop.
I've written my resignation letter for work. I haven't turned it in yet, I'm going to wait till I secure another job before hand. I'm looking real hard for a job at at dental office, since that's what I've wanted to do most of my life, I figure this is a step in the right direction. Hopefully I'll find one soon, I'm just tired of dealing with banking. I need something to give me more experience that what I already have with dentistry.
I have two tests coming up next week, Genetics and Biochem. Both of which are going to be hard and need a lot of studying, so needless to say, I'm not going to be doing much this weekend.
I also went a talked to Dr. Goodman this afternoon, I think I might be working on some research for him, which will be great, plus it will help my with Biochem and Genetics. I've also written a new piece of software called Loan Table. It amortizes loans and also calculates extra principal payments made to the loan. It's pretty good actually, in fact, on VersionTracker, three people have rated me and I've received 5 out of 5 stars on the program. Plus I've had over 3000 downloads. Pretty good for someone who's never advertised and who's only released one piece of software before. Right now I'm working on a way to improve it a little more and then I'll start working on an FTP program. I hate the interface of all the other programs, so hopefully this will work better than them. I just have to get it to connect and all. We'll see how that goes, since I'm having some difficulty with one concept, a very important one, saving. Enjoy.
I really don't have much more to say about today except that it has been awesome and relaxing. I might write a new song while I'm at it, although I doubt it. I would go out to shoot pictures, but it's freezing outside, by my standards at least. Gotta go, have to get the groceries from my mom's car, later.
That's it for that, now I'm just going to give you a small update on my hobbies and other stuff that I like to do. I bought a new digital camera, Sony DSC-F717, which is a great camera. I've been doing a lot of IR photography with it and I love it, I'll post the pictures up once I have time to do that, probably after finals are done. I've also been designing a website for a client of mine, David Jones Custom Homes, and it's turning out pretty good, in fact, now that I think about it, the pictures for the backgrounds for his site are some of the IR pictures that I've taken. That's really all for that subject. Now my programming, I'm writing a program in Cocoa (Objective-C) called GPA Office, this programs lets you input each class and it will automatically calculate the GPA for you and eventually will be able to graph all your data for you and print out everything all nice and neat. You might think that this is a stupid idea or there's no use, but I think this would help a lot of students and maybe schools as well. This would also be very useful for completing the HPAC. I might write a program that I target specifically towards the HPAC, I believe that would also be a lot of help to other students, of course by the time something like that is done, I'll be done with the HPAC, but still, I think it would be very cool to do something like that and I'm sure others would appreciate it. Later.
Update: Soon, I will change the daily section to important dates, that way I don't feel pressured to post here everyday. Anyway, that's all for now, peace.